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Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 10.62.15

తమహం మృగయే కాన్తం పాయయిత్వాధరం మధు । క్వ‍ాపి యాత: స్పృహయతీం క్షిప్‍త్‍వా మాం వృజినార్ణవే ॥ ౧౫ ॥
tam ahaṁ mṛgaye kāntaṁ
[tam aham mrigaye kaantam]
pāyayitvādharaṁ madhu
[paayayitvaadharam madhu]
kvāpi yātaḥ spṛhayatīṁ
[kvaapi yaatah sprihayateem]
kṣiptvā māṁ vṛjinārṇave
[kshiptvaa maam vrijinaarnave]
tam — Him aham — I mṛgaye — am seeking kāntam — lover pāyayitvā — having made drink ādharam — of His lips madhu — the honey kva api — somewhere yātaḥ — has gone spṛhayatīm — hankering for Him kṣiptvā — having thrown mām — me vṛjina — of distress arṇave — in the ocean .
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
tam ahaṁ mṛgaye kāntaṁ
tam
Him
aham
I
mṛgaye
am seeking
kāntam
lover
pāyayitvādharaṁ madhu
pāyayitvā
having made drink
ādharam
of His lips
madhu
the honey
kvāpi yātaḥ spṛhayatīṁ
kva api
somewhere
yātaḥ
has gone
spṛhayatīm
hankering for Him
kṣiptvā māṁ vṛjinārṇave
kṣiptvā
having thrown
mām
me
vṛjina
of distress
arṇave
in the ocean .
  • ādharam madhu — the honey of (His) lips
    Compound noun phrase: ādhara (lip) + madhu (honey). The phrase Mahāprabhu Himself uses in His Śikṣāṣṭaka and in the rasa-poetry He recites at Gambhīrā. Vraja's mādhurya is bodily and specific — lips, not abstractions.
  • pāyayitvā — having made (me) drink
    Absolutive of the causative of √pā. The grammatical form does the theological work: the lover is the active causer; the beloved is made to drink. The Lord initiates the taste; the soul does not summon Him.
  • vṛjina-arṇave — in the ocean of distress
    Compound: vṛjina (distress) + arṇave (in the ocean). Bhāgavata-imagery: bhava-arṇava (ocean of birth-and-death), duḥkha-arṇava (ocean of sorrow), and now vṛjina-arṇava. The remedy is always the same — Kṛṣṇa's hand, no other.
  • spṛhayatīm — hankering for Him
    Present participle of √spṛh. Distinct from kāma: spṛhā is the directed reaching of the heart toward a person, not the bodily urge. Gauḍīyas honor spṛhā when it is for Kṛṣṇa — Rūpa Gosvāmī's last verses are pure spṛhā for the dust of Vraja.
It is that lover I search for. After making me drink the honey of His lips, He has gone elsewhere, and thus He has thrown me, hankering fervently for Him, into the ocean of distress.
Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura Gauḍīya
Translation
It is that lover I search for. After making me drink the honey of His lips, He has gone elsewhere, and thus He has thrown me, hankering fervently for Him, into the ocean of distress.
Jīva Gosvāmī Gauḍīya
Commentary

He made me drink the honey of his lips. Though my desires were not fulfilled (spṛhayatīm), he left.

Related values
Prema (Divine Love)Kshama (Forgiveness / Patience)Seva (Service / Selfless Action)Atma Nigraha (Self-control)Daya (Compassion / Mercy)
Related verses
Concepts
Jiva

Like a cup pressed once to the lip and then withdrawn, leaving the taste but not the drink, Aniruddha's dream-kiss has cast Ūṣā into the ocean of separation. The Bhāgavatam keeps showing the same shape: a taste of the Lord is sweeter than every fulfillment — and more painful in its loss.

Mahāprabhu in separation at Gambhīrā

In Caitanya-caritāmṛta, Antya-līlā, the last twelve years of Mahāprabhu's life at the Gambhīrā in Purī were spent in continuous gopī-bhāva of separation. He would press His face against the walls, weep into Svarūpa Dāmodara's lap, recite verses about cups of nectar drunk and withdrawn.

Gauḍīyas read every line of Antya-līlā as commentary on this state: prema once tasted, then hidden, is the deepest form of the Lord's grace — vipralambha-bhāva. Ūṣā's complaint, asuric in setting, sketches the same shape from below.

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