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Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 10.56.39

స చాతివ్రీడితో రత్నం గృహీత్వావాఙ్‍ముఖస్తత: । అనుతప్యమానో భవనమగమత్ స్వేన పాప్మనా ॥ ౩౯ ॥
sa cāti-vrīḍito ratnaṁ
[sa chaati-vreedito ratnam]
gṛhītvāvāṅ-mukhas tataḥ
[griheetvaavaan-mukhas tatah]
anutapyamāno bhavanam
[anutapyamaano bhavanam]
agamat svena pāpmanā
[agamat svena paapmanaa]
saḥ — he, Satrājit ca — and ati — extremely vrīḍitaḥ — ashamed ratnam — the gem gṛhītvā — taking avāk — downward mukhaḥ — his face tataḥ — from there anutapyamānaḥ — feeling remorse bhavanam — to his home agamat — went svena — with his own pāpmanā — sinful behavior .
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
sa cāti-vrīḍito ratnaṁ
saḥ
he, Satrājit
ca
and
ati
extremely
vrīḍitaḥ
ashamed
ratnam
the gem
gṛhītvāvāṅ-mukhas tataḥ
gṛhītvā
taking
avāk
downward
mukhaḥ
his face
tataḥ
from there
anutapyamāno bhavanam
anutapyamānaḥ
feeling remorse
bhavanam
to his home
agamat svena pāpmanā
agamat
went
svena
with his own
pāpmanā
sinful behavior .
  • vrīḍitaḥ — ashamed
    Past participle of √vrīḍ. Vrīḍā (shame) is a Gauḍīya rasa-element — the gopīs feel vrīḍā before Kṛṣṇa, devotees feel vrīḍā at their own offenses. Both ennoble the bhāva. Satrājit's vrīḍā here is the seed of his eventual surrender.
  • avāk-mukhaḥ — face downward
    Compound: avāk (downward) + mukha (face). The body language of remorse. Even Sanskrit grammar codes the moral state — face down, gem in hand, walking home alone.
  • anutapyamānaḥ — feeling remorse
    Present participle of anu + √tap (passive). The same √tap as tapas — but here it burns inwardly as remorse. Bhāgavata teaching: anutāpa is the right tapas of the offender; remorse is the heat that prepares the soil.
  • pāpmanā — with his sinful behavior
    Instrumental of pāpman. He walks home accompanied by his pāpa — until offered as gift to Hari. The Bhāgavatam's psychology: pāpa is a thing one carries until one hands it over.
Hanging his head in great shame, Satrājit took the gem and returned home, all the while feeling remorse for his sinful behavior.
Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura Gauḍīya
Translation
Hanging his head in great shame, Satrājit took the gem and returned home, all the while feeling remorse for his sinful behavior.
Commentary

Satrajit was repentent (anupayamana) for his offensive behavior.

Jīva Gosvāmī Gauḍīya
Commentary

The word ca means “but.” This distinguishes him from the other people who were excellent. He, unlike the others, felt remorse. He then left the assembly (tataḥ) and went to his house. The Lord, because of his affection, did not disrespect Satrājit, but accepted the sin as his own (svena).

Related values
Shraddha (Faith / Reverence)Bhakti (Devotion)Kshama (Forgiveness / Patience)Vairagya (Detachment / Dispassion)
Related verses

Satrājit's hung head is the chapter's quietest scene. The man who installed a jewel where the deity should sit now walks home with his head down — the deity has corrected the architecture without a word.

Bhīṣma's remorse on the arrow-bed

Bhīṣma had once vowed to never let Kṛṣṇa lift a weapon; in the Kurukṣetra war he forced Kṛṣṇa to lift the chariot-wheel. On his arrow-bed he wept — not for his wounds, but for what he had pulled from his Lord.

Satrājit, walking home with the jewel and his shame, is in the same posture: the lesser man who has finally registered the cost of his demand on Bhagavān. The Bhāgavatam never lets shame remain a closed feeling; it pushes it toward atonement.

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