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Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 10.90.20

మేఘ శ్రీమంస్త్వమసి దయితో యాదవేన్ద్రస్య నూనం శ్రీవత్సాఙ్కం వయమివ భవాన్ ధ్యాయతి ప్రేమబద్ధ: । అత్యుత్కణ్ఠ: శవలహృదయోఽస్మద్విధో బాష్పధారా: స్మృత్వా స్మృత్వా విసృజసి ముహుర్దు:ఖదస్తత్ప్రసఙ్గ: ॥ ౨౦ ॥
megha śrīmaṁs tvam asi dayito yādavendrasya nūnaṁ
[megha shreemams tvam asi dayito yaadavendrasya noonam]
śrīvatsāṅkaṁ vayam iva bhavān dhyāyati prema-baddhaḥ
[shreevatsaankam vayam iva bhavaan dhyaayati prema-baddhah]
aty-utkaṇṭhaḥ śavala-hṛdayo ’smad-vidho bāṣpa-dhārāḥ
[aty-utkanthah shavala-hridayo ’smad-vidho baashpa-dhaaraah]
smṛtvā smṛtvā visṛjasi muhur duḥkha-das tat-prasaṅgaḥ
[smritvaa smritvaa visrijasi muhur duhkha-das tat-prasangah]
megha — O cloud śrī - man — O honored one tvam — you asi — are dayitaḥ — dear friend yādava - indrasya — of the chief of the Yādavas nūnam — certainly śrīvatsa - aṅkam — upon the one who bears (on His chest) the special mark known as Śrīvatsa vayam — we iva — just as bhavān — your good self dhyāyati — meditate prema — by pure love baddhaḥ — bound ati — extremely utkaṇṭhaḥ — eager śavala — distraught hṛdayaḥ — whose heart asmat — as our (hearts) vidhaḥ — in the same manner bāṣpa — of tears dhārāḥ — torrents smṛtvā smṛtvā — repeatedly remembering visṛjasi — you release muhuḥ — again and again duḥkha — misery daḥ — giving tat — with Him prasaṅgaḥ — association .
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
megha śrīmaṁs tvam asi dayito yādavendrasya nūnaṁ
megha
O cloud
śrī - man
O honored one
tvam
you
asi
are
dayitaḥ
dear friend
yādava - indrasya
of the chief of the Yādavas
nūnam
certainly
śrīvatsāṅkaṁ vayam iva bhavān dhyāyati prema-baddhaḥ
śrīvatsa - aṅkam
upon the one who bears (on His chest) the special mark known as Śrīvatsa
vayam
we
iva
just as
bhavān
your good self
dhyāyati
meditate
prema
by pure love
baddhaḥ
bound
aty-utkaṇṭhaḥ śavala-hṛdayo ’smad-vidho bāṣpa-dhārāḥ
ati
extremely
utkaṇṭhaḥ
eager
śavala
distraught
hṛdayaḥ
whose heart
asmat
as our (hearts)
smṛtvā smṛtvā visṛjasi muhur duḥkha-das tat-prasaṅgaḥ
vidhaḥ
in the same manner
bāṣpa
of tears
dhārāḥ
torrents
smṛtvā smṛtvā
repeatedly remembering
visṛjasi
you release
muhuḥ
again and again
duḥkha
misery
daḥ
giving
tat
with Him
prasaṅgaḥ
association .
  • prema-baddhaḥ — bound by love
    Contiguous compound: prema (mature love) + baddha (bound). Gauḍīya theology distinguishes prema-bandhana — Bhagavān willingly bound by His devotee's love (as Yaśodā bound Dāmodara) — from karma-bandhana. The cloud is prema-bound; so are the queens.
  • śrīvatsa-aṅkam — bearing the mark of Śrīvatsa
    Compound: śrīvatsa (the auspicious curl-shaped mark on Kṛṣṇa-Viṣṇu's chest) + aṅka (mark). The diagnostic mark of Bhagavān's transcendental body, distinguishing Him from any human-like form. Gauḍīyas accept it as svarūpa-lakṣaṇa.
  • yādava-indrasya — of the chief of the Yādavas
    yādava + indra (chief). Kṛṣṇa as Yadu-vara, leader of His own dynasty. Even in viraha the queen names His relational location — He is not a vague absolute; He is the Yādava-chief whose chest she knows.
  • smṛtvā smṛtvā — remembering and remembering
    Reduplicated absolutive of √smṛ. Continuous, unstoppable remembrance — the form bhakti takes in separation. Compare Bhagavad-gītā 8.7: mām anusmara. Repeated remembrance is the lover's only practice.
  • duḥkha-daḥ — giver of distress
    duḥkha (pain) + da (giver). The queen says outright: association with Kṛṣṇa brings such misery. Gauḍīya commentators (Viśvanātha) gloss: this 'misery' is bhakti-rasa's prized vipralambha — sweeter than ordinary union.
O revered cloud, you are indeed very dear to the chief of the Yādavas, who bears the mark of Śrīvatsa. Like us, you are bound to Him by love and are meditating upon Him. Your heart is distraught with great eagerness, as our hearts are, and as you remember Him again and again you shed a torrent of tears. Association with Kṛṣṇa brings such misery!

The ācāryas explain this verse as follows: The cloud acts as the friend of Lord Kṛṣṇa by shielding Him from the scorching rays of the sun, and certainly such an earnest well-wisher of the Lord must constantly meditate on Him with concern for His welfare. Although the cloud shares the Lord’s blue complexion, it is Lord Kṛṣṇa’s distinctive features, such as His Śrīvatsa mark, that especially attract him to this meditation. But what is the result? Simply unhappiness: the cloud is depressed and thus constantly sheds tears on the pretext of raining. “So,” the queens advise him, “it would be better for you not to take much interest in Kṛṣṇa.”

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura Gauḍīya
Translation
O revered cloud, you are indeed very dear to the chief of the Yādavas, who bears the mark of Śrīvatsa. Like us, you are bound to Him by love and are meditating upon Him. Your heart is distraught with great eagerness, as our hearts are, and as you remember Him again and again you shed a torrent of tears. Association with Kṛṣṇa brings such misery!
Commentary

"O cloud, you are the friend (dayita) of Krsna. Being tied to him out of love, you meditate on him. We understand you have attraction for him because though you are of similar color, he has the additional mark of the srivatsa (srivatsa ankam). With disturbed heart (sabala hrdayah), afflicted by lamentation, on the pretext of rain, you are showering tears and crying. Oh, why did you become attracted to him? His association brings only suffering."

Jīva Gosvāmī Gauḍīya
Commentary

Thinking the cloud is crying out of pain of separation from the Lord, as it showers water into the ocean, they speak of it as his sincere friend on seeing similarity of the cloud with Kṛṣṇa. Nūnam indicates conjecture. It should be supplied to all the statements. O cloud! You are perhaps a dear friend of the king of the Yadus since you have similar form to him. Then what? It seems you meditate on him since he has remarkable characteristics similar to yours. “What is the use of meditation if the result is less than expected?” The nature of his form is that it produces prema (prema-baddhaḥ), not indifference or hatred. Since you are bound with prema, perhaps you are longing for him. Your heart is affected with various (śavala) bhāvas like nirveda, since you are like us. By your symptoms arising from prema, we can understand about you. Or, because of great longing, your middle portion appears with many colors (śavala). That is suitable since you are like us. Oh! Perhaps on remembering him repeatedly, you sprinkle showers of tears everywhere. The reason is given. Attachment to Kṛṣṇa produces misery. Or any topic about him produces misery.

Śrīdhara Svāmī Gauḍīya
Commentary

Thinking that the cloud showing water near the ocean is crying out of pain of separation from the Lord, they speak. The cloud is dear to the Lord because it removes suffering of the people by showering the land with rain. And it is dear because of similarity of color to the Lord. O cloud, endowed with beauty, with dark color (śrī)! You are dear to Kṛṣṇa, king of the Yadus, who is dear to us. Or just as the Yādavas are suitable of his affection, you also are his object of affection. Nūnam indicates conjecture. You, like us, meditate on Krṣṇa who is most extraordinary, with the extraordinary mark of Śrīvatsa. Or you meditate on Vraja Kṛṣṇa who always has a calf (vatsa) on his lap (aṅkam). The form wearing cowherd dress is most suitable for meditation. Bound by prema you think of him. They address the cloud with respect by using the word bhavān, since he is dear to the lord. Like us, greatly passionate, with disturbed in heart (śavala-hṛdaya), you emit streams of tears out of intense prema, on remembering him. Though you try to stop thinking of him you cannot. Attachment to him (tat-prasaṅgaḥ) or associating with him by news or thinking of him, gives suffering. This is to be expected.

Related values
Vairagya (Detachment / Dispassion)Discriminative WisdomAbhaya (Fearlessness)Seva (Service / Selfless Action)Saurya (Heroism / Bravery)Samata (Equanimity / Even-mindedness)Aparigraha (Non-possessiveness)
Related verses

A monsoon cloud weeps for Kṛṣṇa — His skin is its color, His chest bears Śrīvatsa, the cloud is His brother by complexion. The queen sees her own state in the cloud's: 'You too cannot stop remembering Him, and you too overflow.' Tears as the body's monsoon.

Govardhana-līlā: clouds and Kṛṣṇa face to face

Earlier in this canto (SB 10.24-25) Indra unleashed the Sāṁvartaka clouds against Vraja, and Kṛṣṇa lifted Govardhana for seven days as their roof. The clouds met Bhagavān face to face, broke against the hill, and were defeated. The clouds remember.

Gauḍīyas read 90.20 as the cloud's penance — what once attacked Vraja now stands as His prema-baddha devotee, weeping. The queen's recognition ('like us, you are bound to Him by love') is precise: tears are the body's repentance turned into worship.

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