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Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 6.2.27

ధిఙ్‌మాం విగర్హితం సద్భ‍ిర్దుష్కృతం కులకజ్జలమ్ । హిత్వా బాలాం సతీం యోఽహం సురాపీమసతీమగామ్ ॥ ౨౭ ॥
dhiṅ māṁ vigarhitaṁ sadbhir
[dhin maam vigarhitam sadbhir]
duṣkṛtaṁ kula-kajjalam
[dushkritam kula-kajjalam]
hitvā bālāṁ satīṁ yo ’haṁ
[hitvaa baalaam sateem yo ’ham]
surā-pīm asatīm agām
[suraa-peem asateem agaam]
dhik mām — all condemnation upon me vigarhitam — condemned sadbhiḥ — by honest men duṣkṛtam — who has committed sinful acts kula-kajjalam — who has defamed the family tradition hitvā — giving up bālām — a young wife satīm — chaste yaḥ — who aham — I surā-pīm — with a woman accustomed to drinking wine asatīm — unchaste agām — I had sexual intercourse.
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
dhiṅ māṁ vigarhitaṁ sadbhir
dhik mām
all condemnation upon me
vigarhitam
condemned
sadbhiḥ
by honest men
duṣkṛtaṁ kula-kajjalam
duṣkṛtam
who has committed sinful acts
kula-kajjalam
who has defamed the family tradition
hitvā bālāṁ satīṁ yo ’haṁ
hitvā
giving up
bālām
a young wife
satīm
chaste
yaḥ
who
aham
I
surā-pīm asatīm agām
surā-pīm
with a woman accustomed to drinking wine
asatīm
unchaste
agām
I had sexual intercourse.
Alas, all condemnation upon me! I acted so sinfully that I degraded my family tradition. Indeed, I gave up my chaste and beautiful young wife to have sexual intercourse with a fallen prostitute accustomed to drinking wine. All condemnation upon me!

This is the mentality of one who is becoming a pure devotee. When one is elevated to the platform of devotional service by the grace of the Lord and the spiritual master, one first regrets his past sinful activities. This helps one advance in spiritual life. The Viṣṇudūtas had given Ajāmila the chance to become a pure devotee, and the duty of a pure devotee is to regret his past sinful activities in illicit sex, intoxication, meat-eating and gambling. Not only should one give up his past bad habits, but he must always regret his past sinful acts. This is the standard of pure devotion.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura Gauḍīya
Translation
I am unfortunate, having committed sin and defamed my family. I am condemned by the civilized! Giving up my faithful wife I had relationships with an unchaste, drunkard woman. Duṣkṛtam means “personification of sin” or “performer of sin.”
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