When I would close my eyes and fake samādhi in jest, the deer would approach in great alarm and out of anger in love butt me with the tender tips of his horns which felt like water drops. Kṣvelikāyām means “while playing.” He will approach me with my eyes closed in false samādhi. “O fool! Though I nourish you, I will not give up my daily duties of remembering and chanting. I am giving you up. Go wherever you want!” Pretending to be angry I would then fake samādhi, out of desire to see what the deer would do. Out of anger in love, the deer would butt me with the tips of his tender horns which felt like drops of water (pṛṣat).