Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 10.46.18
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
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smarati
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remembers
Third-person singular present of √smṛ. The verse repeats smaraṇa-vocabulary that has now spread through the chapter (4, 5, 21, 27). Vraja's question is always the smaraṇa-question: do we still exist inside the Lord's smṛti?
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mātaram
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His mother
Accusative of mātṛ. Nanda lists mother before himself — the father will not yet name himself in the litany. Even in grief, vātsalya defers to vātsalya: Yaśodā's claim on Kṛṣṇa is named first.
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vrajam
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Vraja
The dhāma itself enters the list of remembered objects. Gauḍīyas read this verse as Nanda placing the dhāma alongside persons — the place is loved, and asked-after, on the same footing as the people. Vraja is not scenery.
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ātma - nātham
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whose master is Himself
Compound modifying vrajam: Vraja whose only nātha (lord/protector) is Kṛṣṇa Himself. Theological force: even in His absence, Vraja has no other lord. Gauḍīya tradition makes this verse a proof-text for kṛṣṇa-nātha exclusivity in Vraja.
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gāvaḥ
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the cows
Nominative plural of go. The cows enter the list before Govardhana — Nanda's instinct is correct: the gāvaḥ are the persons of Vraja, not its property. Gauḍīya cow-theology stands on such moments.
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girim
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the mountain (Govardhana)
Accusative of giri. Govardhana, the hill Kṛṣṇa lifted seven days; the verse names it last, almost as climax. The hill that knew Kṛṣṇa's hand most intimately — does it now know His memory?
Then with tears in his eyes and choked voice he began to ask about Krsna. Pointing with his finger, he said, "Just see the condition of Krsna’s mother. See Vraja now, bereft of glory, whose master was Krsna (atma natham), but which is now without Krsna." !9. "Will Krsna come here? O Uddhava, do you know the intention in Krsna’s mind?" "Yes I know, he will come. He will relieve you of suffering and will stay here." "Let him not console us, and let him not stay here permanently. I beg only to see him. We, his own people (sva janana), afflicted by separation, will die today or tomorrow. Will he not come to see them just once? Oh Govinda, please take (vindatam) unlimited cows, meaning also millions of gold coins, pearls, and diamonds, jewel encrusted plates, various types of cloth, ornaments, sandalwood, aguru, kumkum and many household items. These are all yours. We are almost dead. Who else has a right to these things? Take all these things and live wherever you desire to live." "Why are you talking like this? You should know that he is about to come." Not being able to bear the delay, Nanda said, " When (karhi) will I be able to see his face? His face, which surpasses a million moons, his incomparable nose, his sweet smile, and his long, lotus petal eyes. As the end approaches, seeing this, we will die." By this he expresses his extreme anxiety.
Not able to control himself for long, Nanda then asked directly what he wanted to ask. Does Kṛṣṇa, who attracts all hearts, who is my son, remember us? Did he not forget us? Plural is used (naḥ) to indicate Upananda and others also. It thus indicates Kṛṣṇa’s affection for all. He mentions Yaśodā, since Nanda remembered her because of his pain on seeing her great sorrow. Does he remember other cowherd relatives like maternal uncles, his companions like Śrīdāmā, the cowherds in general and also the gopīs, and Vraja, whose master is Kṛṣṇa (ātma). By being master of Vraja he was naturally the master of everyone. Gāvaḥ should be gāḥ. He lists everyone from most important (Yaśodā) to less important (cows). Since it is included in Vṛndāvana, he mentions Govardhana after Vṛndāvana, though Govardhana is more important. Or he mentions naḥ first because that came to his mind first. Then he remembered about the Yaśodā, well-wishers and Kṛṣṇa’s friends in that order because of proximity to himself, with the later persons further away in open areas. Then, unable to remember details, he asks about other cowherds and Vraja in general. After asking in general about Vraja, not able to think of the details, he then asks specifically about the cows. Does he constantly remember Vṛndāvana where he enjoyed and the cows with whom he enjoyed, though he has now given them up? In Vṛndāvana, does he remember the mountain he held up in his hand for seven days, while encouraging worship of himself--a desire tree with a wealth of happiness and a variety of pastimes? After killing Kaṁsa, who was only one person, he is now hampered in many ways. He must not be able to think about himself because of worrying about a safe place for the Yadus, bringing them here and there, in order to defend them from many wicked enemies, such as followers of Kaṁsa’s wives and the father of Kaṁsa’s wives. In that condition how could he think of us?
A father's most painful question wears the disguise of a list: does he remember His mother, His friends, the cows, the hill, the forest? Each item is a hand reaching toward a son who has not come back. Nanda cannot ask 'does He love me?' so he asks 'does He remember the cows?'
When Rāma went to the forest, Daśaratha could not stop reciting the names of his son's companions, his bow, his sandals, his deer-skin (Rāmāyaṇa, Ayodhyā-kāṇḍa). The list-of-things became the only available form of the unutterable question.
Nanda in SB 10.46.18 does the same. Gauḍīya ācāryas note that vātsalya-viraha and dāsa-vātsalya-viraha share this grammar of inventory: when the beloved is unspeakable, the heart names everything around him.
My note
Source: vedabase.io