Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 10.30.3
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
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pratirūḍha
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fully absorbed
Past participle of prati-√ruh (to mount, ascend upon). His mood has 'climbed onto' their bodies. The Gosvāmīs distinguish this bhāva-āveśa from Advaitin fusion: the gopī remains a gopī, the body remains hers — but the indwelling mood is fully Kṛṣṇa's.
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asau-aham
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He, I
The famous half-line: 'He — I am!' Read in Advaita as identity-statement; read by Gauḍīyas (Viśvanātha Cakravartī, Jīva Gosvāmī) as the eighth-stage symptom of mahābhāva called tādātmya, where viraha so heats the soul that it loses track of where the beloved ends and the self begins — without losing distinction. Bhedābheda exactly.
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abalāḥ
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the women
Literally 'the strength-less ones' — a poetic name for women in Sanskrit. The Bhāgavatam loves the irony: these 'weak' women have just overpowered the speech, gait, and glance of the all-powerful Lord. Their helplessness is their conquering instrument.
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kṛṣṇa-vihāra
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caused by the pastimes of Kṛṣṇa
Compound: kṛṣṇa + vihāra (sport, play, dalliance). Vihāra is Rūpa Gosvāmī's term for the specific erotic-playful līlā of Vraja, distinct from līlā in general. It is intoxicating (vibhramāḥ) precisely because it is personal, sensuous, and unique.
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vibhramāḥ
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whose intoxication
Here in plural — the gopīs are in many simultaneous madnesses caused by remembrance. Caitanya Mahāprabhu's biographers use this exact word for His Purī years; the verse describes the Gauḍīya state of art.
Spontaneously, the gopīs began moving like Kṛṣṇa: they smiled as He would smile, glanced boldly as He would and spoke as He would. The gopīs were completely absorbed in the existence of Kṛṣṇa and mad with love at their sudden separation from Him, and thus their dedication to Him attained absolute perfection.
This verse describes the gopis when they reached a deep state of unmada. Absorbed in the gait and other characteristics mentioned in the previous verse, the gopis imitated the lord (pratirudha murti). That is, their bodies became similar to Krsna’s in senses and mind. First the actions of Krsna entered the senses and mind of gopis’ bodies and then the gopis bodies entered into the various actions and qualities of Krsna. When the two mixed due to unmada, there was a loss of distinction between "I am Krsna" and "Krsna is me." Attaining the deep state of "I am Krsna (asava aham)", for tasting rasa, the gopis became identical with Krsna (tad atmika). But this is not the same as the state of aham grahopasana. They announced to each other "I am Krsna". None of them were conscious at all that they were women of Vraja. They had attained a state of unmada (vibhramah) in which they identified completely with Krsna in his pastimes.
This verse describes their absorption in Kṛṣṇa. They imitated the movements, smiles, glance and speech of their beloved. Ādi indicates his conjugal actions and vibhrama which were mentioned in the previous verse. They imitated him with the whole bodies with all senses (mūrtayaḥ). They attained his state internally and externally. They were women (abalāḥ) and should have imitated other women. But now they imitated Kṛṣṇa. They said to each other “I am he, that fellow performing pastimes whom you desire.” They performed pastimes like Kṛṣṇa (kṛṣṇa-vihāra-vibhramāḥ) or they were bewildered by his pastimes. They identified with him because that is the nature of activities in prema (they are called priyāḥ) and not as a sādhana used by impersonalists (ahamgrahopāsana). They had natural prema (priyāḥ) for him and he had similar prema (priyasya) with remembrance of them. This anubhāva is called līlā. priyānukaraṇaṁ līlā ramyair veśa-kriyādibhiḥ: Imitating the lover by attractive garments and actions is called līlā. (Ujjvala-nīlamaṇi 11.28) This is illustrated in the following. Muhūr avalokita-manḍana-lilā madhu-ripur aham iti bhāvana śīlā: looking at her ornaments constantly, she thought “I am Kṛṣṇa.” (Gīta-govinda)
This verse describes their absorption in Kṛṣṇa. The list was mentioned in the previous verse. ādi indicates his activities and vibhrama. Since they were already mentioned, the adjectives used with them are not again mentioned. Their bodies with senses and limbs (mūrtayaḥ) were absorbed in imitating his pastimes. Internally and externally they were overcome with this bhāva. tadā pumān mukta-samasta-bandhanas tad-bhāva-bhāvānukṛtāśayākṛtiḥ nirdagdha-bījānuśayo mahīyasā bhakti-prayogeṇa samety adhokṣajam By those methods, that person, liberated from all bondage, with mind and body acting for the Lord and thinking of the Lord, having already burned up the seed of desire, achieves a direct meeting with the Supreme Lord through his rāga-bhakti. SB 7.7.36 They were women (abalāḥ). It was suitable that they imitate women. Or because of the pain they were without strength. Tu means certainly. They said “I am h” because of great pain or because of absorption in the pastimes. The reason is given. They were filled with Kṛṣṇa (tad-ātmikāḥ). They did not say “I am Kṛṣṇa” because of their separation or because they identified with him. Being filled with Kṛṣṇa is natural when one is absorbed in pastimes of prema. It does not mean that they became one with him as in jṣāṇa. They were affection to him (priyāḥ priyasya) because he was Kṛṣṇa, most attractive. Or this identity with Kṛṣṇa can be part of the imitation. They show the imitation in this verse. They say, imitating Kṛṣṇa, “O women! I am that playful lover.” It is understood that previously he said this as a joke. Why is the statement not complete? It was their mental creation (tad-ātmikaḥ). Or tad-ātmikā indicates that the imitation was a complete duplicate. Their activities of kissing, embracing and vibhrama were like Kṛṣṇa’s actions. Or vihāra-vibhramā can mean that they performed his actions of losing a necklace. Kṛṣṇa-vihāra-vibhrama can also mean that they were completely bewildered about whether Kṛṣṇa was playing or not or that they imitated his playing. The incomplete sentence is because of confusion due to separation. Or she who had enjoyed with Kṛṣṇa in plenty (asau) said, “I am he.” Her identity is not revealed out of confusion in separation or out of playfulness. They spoke in this way because their minds were on death (tad-ātmikāḥ). They spoke with a desire to die out of great grief because they were mad (vibhramāḥ) for the pastimes of Kṛṣna. They became confused on remembering his pastimes.
A flute lying empty makes no sound; the player's breath running through it is what the listener calls music. The gopīs, emptied of themselves by Kṛṣṇa's disappearance, become the flute He plays from inside — they walk, smile, and speak as He, declaring 'asau aham — I am He,' not in Advaitin fusion but in love's intoxication.
My note
Source: vedabase.io