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Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 1.6.19

దిద‍ృక్షుస్తదహం భూయ: ప్రణిధాయ మనో హృది । వీక్షమాణోఽపి నాపశ్యమవితృప్త ఇవాతుర: ॥ ౧౯ ॥
didṛkṣus tad ahaṁ bhūyaḥ
[didrikshus tad aham bhooyah]
praṇidhāya mano hṛdi
[pranidhaaya mano hridi]
vīkṣamāṇo ’pi nāpaśyam
[veekshamaano ’pi naapashyam]
avitṛpta ivāturaḥ
[avitripta ivaaturah]
didṛkṣuḥ — desiring to see tat — that aham — I bhūyaḥ — again praṇidhāya — having concentrated the mind manaḥ — mind hṛdi — upon the heart vīkṣamāṇaḥ — waiting to see api — in spite of na — never apaśyam — saw Him avitṛptaḥ — without being satisfied iva — like āturaḥ — aggrieved.
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
didṛkṣus tad ahaṁ bhūyaḥ
didṛkṣuḥ
desiring to see
tat
that
aham
I
bhūyaḥ
again
praṇidhāya mano hṛdi
praṇidhāya
having concentrated the mind
manaḥ
mind
hṛdi
upon the heart
vīkṣamāṇo ’pi nāpaśyam
vīkṣamāṇaḥ
waiting to see
api
in spite of
na
never
apaśyam
saw Him
avitṛpta ivāturaḥ
avitṛptaḥ
without being satisfied
iva
like
āturaḥ
aggrieved.
I desired to see again that transcendental form of the Lord, but despite my attempts to concentrate upon the heart with eagerness to view the form again, I could not see Him any more, and thus dissatisfied, I was very much aggrieved.

There is no mechanical process to see the form of the Lord. It completely depends on the causeless mercy of the Lord. We cannot demand the Lord to be present before our vision, just as we cannot demand the sun to rise whenever we like. The sun rises out of his own accord; so also the Lord is pleased to be present out of His causeless mercy. One should simply await the opportune moment and go on discharging his prescribed duty in devotional service of the Lord. Nārada Muni thought that the Lord could be seen again by the same mechanical process which was successful in the first attempt, but in spite of his utmost endeavor he could not make the second attempt successful. The Lord is completely independent of all obligations. He can simply be bound up by the tie of unalloyed devotion. Nor is He visible or perceivable by our material senses. When He pleases, being satisfied with the sincere attempt of devotional service depending completely on the mercy of the Lord, then He may be seen out of His own accord.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura Gauḍīya
Translation
Desiring to see that form again, I fixed my mind in the heart. Though I looked intently, I did not see that form. Dissatisfied, I became like a diseased person.
Commentary

Praṇidhāya means “having fixed.”

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