Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 10.58.36
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
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abhimatam
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agreeable
From abhi + √man — set the mind upon. Kṛṣṇa is the one her mind has settled on. Gauḍīya: bhāva-bhakti's mark is that the mind has already chosen before any external test is run.
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cakame
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she desired
From √kam — to desire. The same root as kāma. Yet here it is not material kāma but bhakta-rūpā-kāma — the wish for the right Lord. Gauḍīya: not all desire is bondage; rightly-directed kāma is bhakti's seed.
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ramā - patim
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the Lord of Goddess Rāma (Lakṣmī)
Compound — Lakṣmī's husband. Satyā's prayer recognises the cosmic identity: He is Lakṣmī's already; she begs to be His too. Gauḍīya: any bride of Kṛṣṇa knows Lakṣmī precedes her — and is content.
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analaḥ
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the (sacred) fire
Agni. Satyā prays through the fire because Agni is the witness of Vedic vows. Gauḍīya: the same fire that burned Khāṇḍava (verse 25) and gave Arjuna his bow (verse 26) now is invoked as a marriage-witness. Bhagavān's līlās link by their elements.
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vrataḥ
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vow
From √vṛ — to choose. The same root as vṛṇe (verse 21). Satyā's silent vow joins Kālindī's spoken one — both women's tapas-vows are the bhakti-grammar of this chapter.
She saw Krsna through the lattice windows from the watch tower.
The scene in the assembly was described. The scene when Kṛṣṇa was brought into the inner area with his relatives is described. She saw him from lattice holes in the roof pavilion. She saw the groom whom she had long desired and was the choice of all people (abhimatam), since he was the husband even of Rukmiṇī, the perfect Lakṣmī (ramā-patim). This means he was her eternal husband, endowed with the best qualities. She did not feel sorrow at being a co-wife. He went as far as was befitting a suitor (sam--āgatam) within the palace. Seeing him directly (vi-lokya), she became agitated with special emotions and made her vow (cakame). She was the king’s daughter (narendra-kanyāḥ), unable to tolerate agitation because of her tenderness. Her vow is described. May the fire, whom I have long worshipped as my deity, make my desires come true. Doubting the completeness of her worship, in a mood of longing, she then says “May the fire fulfill my desire, if the rules for worship were followed with attention.” Another version has āśiṣo ‘malaḥ (pure desire). In that case the meaning is “May he be mine. May this husband make the pure desire come true, if I have followed the rules with attention.”
She long cherished (abhimatam) Kṛṣṇa since he was the lord of Lakṣmī or he was approved by all (abhimatam) by form and qualities or as the husband of Rukmiṇī (ramā-patim). Seeing him directly coming with his friends (samāgatam), she desired him because she was ornamented with all good form and qualities. What did she desire? May the fire, long worshipped by me, make my desires (āśiṣaḥ) true if my vow was performed according to rules, or if the rules of worship were followed with care. Plural of desires (āśiṣaḥ) is used to show respect.
- What vow do you invoke in your specific prayers?
- Where could prayer be more grounded in your actual track record of vows?
When the right suitor walks into the courtyard, the bride's body knows before her mind does — she does not survey; she recognizes. Satyā's quiet prayer to the sacred fire is recognition asking to be made factual.
When Sāvitrī, daughter of King Aśvapati, was sent to choose her own husband (Mahābhārata, Vana-parva), she returned saying she had chosen Satyavān — though she knew his life was short. Her choice was rooted in seeing.
Satyā's seeing is the same gesture: when bhakti has matured into recognition, the choice is single. Gauḍīyas: a bhakta does not deliberate between Kṛṣṇa and others; she simply sees.
My note
Source: vedabase.io