Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 10.80.15
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
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ādāya
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taking
Gerund of ā-√dā. The verse insists: he carried the bundle. The pṛthuka travels in his hands — bhakti's offering does not delegate.
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vipra - agryaḥ
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the best of brāhmaṇas
Compound: vipra (brāhmaṇa) + agrya (foremost). Sudāmā is named foremost — his external poverty does not affect his interior rank. Gauḍīyas read agryaḥ as a deliberate counter to v.7's ku-cailasya: the world sees ku-caila; the text sees vipra-agrya.
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kṛṣṇa - sandarśanam
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the audience of Lord Kṛṣṇa
Compound: kṛṣṇa + saṁ + darśana. Saṁ-darśana — full, mutual seeing. Stronger than mere darśana. Gauḍīyas note the prefix: Sudāmā longs for the complete reciprocation, not a glance.
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cintayan
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thinking
Present participle of √cint. He walked in cintā — anxiety, not anticipation. Gauḍīyas read this as proper bhakti: the bhakta never assumes; he longs and worries.
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prayayau
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went
Aorist of pra-√yā. The verse's only finite action verb in this line — everything else is participle. The going is the only thing Sudāmā does; everything else is interior.
Among other things, Sudāmā assumed that the gatekeepers would stop him.
"He though, " How will I enter, since I will be prevented by the door guards?"
He took the rice since there was nothing else. He departed so it is said (kila).
He took the rice since there was nothing else. He went with effort (pra), being unable to go property because of his thin body, since he was the devotee of the Lord, the best among brāhmaṇas (viprāgryaḥ). This is certain (kila). He did not give up going there because of his inability. Or kila is connected with the next statement to indicate doubt. Or he went definitely went while definitely thinking (kila), “Will I see the Lord, Kṛṣṇa, bhagavān, directly by some method (katham)?” He was always seeing the Lord in his heart but now it would be direct (sandarśanam), which is very rare.
- Where do I assume access to the Lord rather than approaching humbly?
- What does it mean to walk toward Him not knowing how I'll get in?
A poor man walking toward a coronation hall keeps asking the road — Sudāmā's whole journey is woven from the single anxious thought: how will I even see Him? The bhakta's hesitation is itself bhakti — the certainty that Kṛṣṇa is too great, paired with the hope that He has not forgotten.
Mahāprabhu, having taken sannyāsa, walked toward Jagannātha Purī asking villagers the way, weeping at every step at the prospect of darśana. The mood is recorded across Caitanya-bhāgavata.
Gauḍīyas read Sudāmā's anxious walk in this same register: kṛṣṇa-darśana approaches and the bhakta's heart cannot believe it is being granted. The walk is sādhana in motion.
My note
Source: vedabase.io