Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 10.48.9
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
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preṣṭha
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O beloved
Vocative, superlative of priya. The address is genuine — she loves Him — yet the love is filed inside kāma rather than prema. Gauḍīyas distinguish: priya-bhāva turned toward bhoga is kāma; the same priya-bhāva turned toward Kṛṣṇa's pleasure is prema.
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amburuha-īkṣaṇa
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O lotus-eyed one
Compound: ambu-ruha (water-born = lotus) + īkṣaṇa (eye). The classical Vaiṣṇava epithet. Even her kāmic prayer reaches for a name of His beauty — proof that the heart, even confused, knows the Person it is addressing.
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na utsahe tyaktum
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I cannot tolerate giving up
Phrase: na utsahe (I have no strength) + tyaktum (to abandon). The exact grammar of attachment. Gauḍīya commentators note: this is what kāma sounds like when it speaks honestly. Prema, by contrast, says 'whatever pleases You.'
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saṅgam
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association, contact
From √sañj (to cling). Saṅga is the root term of bondage in the Gītā too (2.47, 2.62). Trivakrā wants more saṅga; Kṛṣṇa elsewhere prescribes sat-saṅga as the cure for asat-saṅga. The verse is its own diagnostic.
The word ambu means “water,” and ruha means “rising.” Thus amburuha means “the lotus flower, which rises up from the water.” Lord Kṛṣṇa is called amburuhekṣaṇa, “the lotus-eyed one.” He is the source and embodiment of all beauty, and naturally Trivakrā was attracted to Him. However, the Lord’s beauty is spiritual and pure, and His intention was not to gratify Himself with Trivakrā but rather to bring her to the point of pure spiritual existence, Kṛṣṇa consciousness.
"Stay in the inner cahmbers of my house for some days and do not go out. All arrangements have been made in this house for drinking and eating." There are two readings saha usyatam (stay with me) and aho usyatam (O please stay).
Another version has sāyoṣyatām (sā aha uṣyatām). However the previous verse already said that she asked. Thus there would be unnecessary repetition of words if this version were accepted. You should stay with me in my house (iha). The goal is stated: enjoy with me a few days. “But I have many other engagements.” But I cannot bear to give up your association. Wherever you go I will go. Otherwise I will give up my life. Why? O lotus eyed one! I cannot give you up because all my senses are attracted to your supreme beauty and qualities.
- Where do you ask Kṛṣṇa to stay only as a pleasure-giver rather than as Lord?
- Could your request mature beyond 'more of the same'?
When a child given access to the king's storehouse points only at the candy jar, the courtiers wince. Trivakrā has the saṁsāra-cutter in front of her and asks for a few more nights. Her request is the Bhāgavatam's most precise demonstration of how kāma reduces every horizon to the next encounter.
My note
Source: vedabase.io