Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 10.38.19
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
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kṛta - añjalim
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with joined palms
Compound: kṛta (made) + añjali (cupped hands). Vandanam — the bodily form of surrender. Gauḍīyas hold añjali as a microcosm of śaraṇāgati: the empty hands held up signify that the devotee brings nothing but himself.
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sasmitam
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smiling
Sa- (with) + smita (smile). Bhagavān's smile while looking at the surrendered devotee — one of the central images of Gauḍīya iconography. The smile signals that the Lord has accepted; Akrūra's whole anticipation hangs on this one expression.
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ārdrayā
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with an affectionate, moist
Moist, wet — the eye is wet with feeling. Bhāgavata uses ārdra-dṛk for an empathetic gaze. Gauḍīyas hold this as a glimpse of the rasa-active Bhagavān: He is moved, His eye softens, He is not the cold-witness of Advaita.
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kilbiṣaḥ
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contamination
Stain, sin. Bhāgavata's category for accumulated impurity from action. The verse claims that one affectionate glance from Kṛṣṇa eradicates the whole accumulation — Gauḍīyas cite this as the principle behind dṛṣṭi-pāta dīkṣā.
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mudam
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happiness
Joy, delight. Distinct from sukha; muda is the spontaneous gladness specifically associated with rasa-experience. Gauḍīyas locate muda in the company of bhaktas and the darśana of the Lord — not in worldly pleasures.
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viśaṅkaḥ
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freed from doubt
vi- (without) + śaṅkā (doubt, hesitation). Akrūra anticipates not merely happiness but the cessation of saṁśaya — the wavering that has dogged him from verse 4. Gauḍīyas regard niḥśaṅkatva as a maturity-marker of bhāva.
"Will he not look at me offering respects at his lotus feet with merciful glance? Immediately I will achieve increased bliss, and all fear will be gone, for the Lord certainly knows my heart."
All my sins (serving Kaṁsa) will be destroyed. All my fears will be removed. In his commentary Śrīdhara Svāmī uses the word yadi to mean “certainly” as in the following: nānyasya barhiṣi balīn dadataḥ sva-bhāgān dhatte padaṁ tvam avitā yadi vighna-mūrdhni But because you are the protector of your devotee, he is able to step over the head of whatever obstacles the devatās place before him. SB 11.4.10 Certainly (yadi) he will see me with his merciful glance. Or, Akrūra develops another desire, being definitely dissatisfied by his nature as a devotee.
All my sins (serving Kaṁsa) or desires for liberation etc. will be destroyed (apadhvasta-samasta-kilbiṣaḥ). All my fears will be removed. Or thinking of receiving mercy, the Lord will not only place his hand on his head, but will cast his smiling glance. This is his further desire. Being attentive, with folded hands, at his feet, perhaps he will glance at me.
- What contamination or doubt are you working on alone when a glance from Him is available?
- Where could you simply wait for His look rather than perfect yourself first?
A long-quarantined child placed back in his mother's lap feels, in one breath, every accumulated loneliness lift — not gradually, but at once. Akrūra rehearses Kṛṣṇa's affectionate smile and predicts the same instantaneous unmaking of his entire contamination.
My note
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