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Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 4.9.37

आकर्ण्यात्मजमायान्तं सम्परेत्य यथागतम् राजा न श्रद्दधे भद्रमभद्रस्य कुतो मम ॥ ३७ ॥
ākarṇyātma-jam āyāntaṁ
[aakarnyaatma-jam aayaantam]
samparetya yathāgatam
[samparetya yathaagatam]
rājā na śraddadhe bhadram
[raajaa na shraddadhe bhadram]
abhadrasya kuto mama
[abhadrasya kuto mama]
ākarṇya — having heard ātma-jam — his son āyāntam — coming back samparetya — after dying yathā — as if āgatam — coming back rājā — King Uttānapāda na — did not śraddadhe — have any confidence bhadram — good fortune abhadrasya — of the impious kutaḥ — whence mama — my.
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
ākarṇyātma-jam āyāntaṁ
ākarṇya
having heard
ātma-jam
his son
āyāntam
coming back
samparetya yathāgatam
samparetya
after dying
yathā
as if
āgatam
coming back
rājā na śraddadhe bhadram
rājā
King Uttānapāda
na
did not
śraddadhe
have any confidence
bhadram
good fortune
abhadrasya kuto mama
abhadrasya
of the impious
kutaḥ
whence
mama
my.
When King Uttānapāda heard that his son Dhruva was coming back home, as if coming back to life after death, he could not put his faith in this message, for he was doubtful of how it could happen. He considered himself the most wretched, and therefore he thought that it was not possible for him to attain such good fortune.

Dhruva Mahārāja, a five-year-old boy, went to the forest for penance and austerity, and the King could not at all believe that a small boy of such a tender age could live in the forest. He was certain that Dhruva was dead. He therefore could not fix his faith in the message that Dhruva Mahārāja was coming back home again. For him this message said that a dead man was coming back home, and so he could not believe it. After Dhruva Mahārāja’s departure from home, King Uttānapāda thought that he was the cause of Dhruva’s leaving, and thus he considered himself the most wretched. Therefore, even though it was possible that his lost son was coming back from the kingdom of death, he thought that since he was most sinful it was not possible for him to be so fortunate as to get back his lost son.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura Gauḍīya
Translation
When the King heard that his son was coming back, as if from death, he could not believe it. How can a rascal like me have good fortune? Now Dhruva returning from Madhuvana and meeting his friends is described.
Hearing that Dhruva is returning, King Uttānapāda can't believe it — he considers himself too wretched for such fortune. Survivor's guilt and self-image as 'unworthy' can block us from receiving the very good that's actually on its way.
Reflection Questions
  • Where am I refusing good news because my self-image won't allow it?
  • Whose return — relational, spiritual — am I subtly bracing against because I don't think I deserve it?
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