Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 3.4.21
सोऽहं तद्दर्शनाह्लादवियोगार्तियुत: प्रभो ।
गमिष्ये दयितं तस्य बदर्याश्रममण्डलम् ॥ २१ ॥
so ’haṁ tad-darśanāhlāda-
[so ’ham tad-darshanaahlaada-]
viyogārti-yutaḥ prabho
[viyogaarti-yutah prabho]
gamiṣye dayitaṁ tasya
[gamishye dayitam tasya]
badaryāśrama-maṇḍalam
[badaryaashrama-mandalam]
Word-for-word
saḥ aham
—
thus myself
tat
—
His
darśana
—
audience
āhlāda
—
pleasure
viyoga
—
without that
ārti-yutaḥ
—
afflicted by distress
prabho
—
my dear sir
gamiṣye
—
shall go
dayitam
—
so instructed
tasya
—
His
badaryāśrama
—
Badarikāśrama, in the Himālayas
maṇḍalam
—
association.
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
so ’haṁ tad-darśanāhlāda-
saḥ aham
thus myself
viyogārti-yutaḥ prabho
tat
His
gamiṣye dayitaṁ tasya
darśana
audience
āhlāda
pleasure
viyoga
without that
badaryāśrama-maṇḍalam
ārti-yutaḥ
afflicted by distress
prabho
my dear sir
gamiṣye
shall go
dayitam
so instructed
tasya
His
badaryāśrama
Badarikāśrama, in the Himālayas
maṇḍalam
association.
My dear Vidura, now I am mad for want of the pleasure of seeing Him, and just to mitigate this I am now proceeding to Badarikāśrama in the Himālayas for association, as I have been instructed by Him.
Purport
A pure devotee of the Lord of the standard of Uddhava constantly associates with the Lord in the double perception of simultaneous separation and meeting. The pure devotee is not for a moment unengaged in the transcendental service of the Lord. Execution of the Lord’s service is the main occupation of the pure devotee. Uddhava’s separation from the Lord was unbearable, and therefore he started to Badarikāśrama in obedience to the Lord’s order because the order of the Lord and the Lord Himself are identical. As long as one is engaged in the execution of the order of the Lord, there is no factual separation from Him.
— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
Gauḍīya Ācāryas
Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura
Gauḍīya
Translation
O Vidura! Joyous because of seeing Kṛṣṇa, and pained by separation from him, I will now go to Badarikāśrama, his dear place.
How will you live in pain of separation? At every moment I experience joy from having met him, and sorrow because of separation from him. Going to Badarikāśrama was the order of the Lord.
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Personal Guidance
When separated from the Lord, Uddhava followed His order; obeying the Lord's instruction is itself a form of association. If you ache for connection, do the thing He last asked you to do; the bond is restored in the doing.
Reflection Questions
- What last instruction from the Lord are you ignoring while waiting to 'feel' His presence?
- How does executing His order become your way back to communion with Him?
My note
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