Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 10.76.30
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
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pitarau
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with My fathers
Dual of pitṛ — 'the two fathers.' Rāma (Balarāma) is Pradyumna's uncle but elder enough to be addressed as a father — and in Gauḍīya theology Balarāma is the ādi-guru, while Kṛṣṇa is the iṣṭa. Both fathers must be faced.
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rāma-keśavau
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Balarāma and Kṛṣṇa
Compound from synonyms. Rāma — Balarāma; Keśava — Kṛṣṇa, He of beautiful hair (also slayer of the demon Keśī). The dual form binds the two brothers as one ālambana for Pradyumna's bhāva.
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abhisaṅgamya
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meeting
Gerund of abhi + sam + √gam. Coming-toward-and-together-with. Used in Sanskrit for both formal audiences and intimate meetings; here both senses operate — formal Yadu-court report and intimate father-son encounter.
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apakrāntaḥ
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fled
Past participle of apa + √kram. Stepping-away. Same prefix as apasarpaṇam (verse 28) — Pradyumna lingers on the cluster of 'away-ness' words; each is a different way of naming the same scratch on his honor.
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kṣamam
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fitting
Adjective from √kṣam (to endure, to be patient). Kṣamā in Gauḍīya doctrine is the devotee's first ornament (cf. SB 1.18.21). Pradyumna asks what kṣama-word he can speak — what answer his fathers will be able to bear.
Śrī Pradyumna here uses the word pitarau, “fathers,” loosely. Lord Balarāma was of course His uncle.
On meeting Krsna and Balarama, what is a suitable (ksamam) answer when I am asked about this?
Rāma means “he who gives joy to his relatives by killing the enemy.” Keśava means “he who killed Keśī as play.” Thus rāma -keśavau indicates their great prowess. How will I speak of my suitable action (kṣamam), what must be done according to dharma, when asked?
Rāma means “he who gives joy to his relatives by killing the enemy.” Keśava means “he who killed Keśī as play.” Thus rāma-keśavau indicates their great prowess. I have completely strayed from my duty (dharmāt instead of yuddhāt), or from what is auspicious action, arising from piety. What activity will I say is suitable for me (kṣamam)? Nothing is suitable. Or when asked about what is beneficial (kṣamam), protecting my sva-dharma, what will I say? I am ashamed.
- Whose loving eye holds me accountable in my finest moments?
- What helps me return to those eyes when I have wavered?
Like a son who has nothing to say at His father's threshold after a misadventure, Pradyumna rehearses the meeting with Rāma and Keśava and finds no word that fits. To carry a clean answer back to one's spiritual father is itself a kṣatra-tapas.
My note
Source: vedabase.io