Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 10.45.4
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
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daiva - hatayoḥ
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deprived by fate
Daiva = providence; hata = struck down. Kṛṣṇa, who Himself is the controller of daiva, here speaks as a son whose family was struck by it — the maximum tenderness Yogamāyā permits Him.
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vāsaḥ
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residence
Not visiting but vāsa — dwelling. Vāsa-bhakti, dwelling-with the Lord, is precisely what Vasudeva and Devakī were denied and what Nanda and Yaśodā received in Gokula. The single noun encodes the whole asymmetry of Canto 10.
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lālitāḥ
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pampered
Past participle of √lāl — to fondle, indulge. The Vraja-vātsalya verb par excellence; cf. SB 10.8 where Yaśodā lālayati her bound son. Kṛṣṇa is using Vraja's word to describe what Mathurā lost.
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mudam
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happiness
Muda — not sukha (comfort) but glad-heartedness. The specific joy of a coddled child, distinct from the joys of opulence Mathurā could supply. Kṛṣṇa is naming the rasa, not the resource.
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pitṛ - geha
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parents' home
Pitṛ-geha is a recognized śāstric locus — the natural setting for the child's saṁskāras. Kṛṣṇa frames the deprivation in dharma's own vocabulary, so His parents' grief is sanctioned, not merely sentimental.
Here Lord Kṛṣṇa points out that not only did His parents suffer in separation from Him and Balarāma, but the two boys also suffered in separation from Their parents.
"We also have been unfortunate (daiva hatayoh)." However the words also mean the opposite: "We have attained good fortune in not attaining the happiness of ordinary children."
Not only was your happiness destroyed, but ours also. We were excluded from happiness as sons. Or we did not have the opportunity to give you happiness, being useless sons. Thus all our happiness was destroyed. They then speak this verse. We, dependent on bad karma (adaiva-hatayoḥ), did not live with you. Children, living in their parents’ house, cared for by their parents, experience happiness. Or, children living in their parents’ house naturally experience happiness and are particularly cared for by them.
We should not have deprived you of happiness, but we were deprived of happiness. By ill fate we could not live with you. He says this with great humility. However his words can also mean “Not affected by fate (adaiva-hatayoḥ), we could not live with you.” The Lord is not dependent on karma. Children, living in their parents’ house, cared for by their parents ( or even not cared for alalitā), experience happiness.
- What loss of your parents' company did you suffer that you've never owned aloud?
- Where do you frame yourself only as the cause of others' suffering, not as a sufferer?
A child fed in a stranger's house can be safe and even cherished, but the lap of one's own parents is a different geography altogether. Kṛṣṇa names this geography to soothe Devakī — He knows what was taken, and He is calling it by its name.
My note
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