Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 10.38.4
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
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durlabham
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difficult to achieve
From dur- (hard) + labh (to obtain). Gauḍīya śāstra reserves this word for prema and for the company of pure devotees — things that cannot be purchased even by accumulated puṇya. Akrūra grades his upcoming darśana inside that highest category.
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uttamaḥ - śloka
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the Supreme Lord, who is praised in the best verses
Compound: uttamaḥ (highest) + śloka (verse, praise). Bhāgavata's signature epithet for Kṛṣṇa — the one of whom only the highest poetry is true. Akrūra names his goal in the very form the Bhāgavatam itself uses to point at Him.
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viṣaya - ātmanaḥ
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for one whose self is absorbed in sense gratification
Compound: viṣaya (sense object) + ātman (self) — a man whose self has become the senses' object. Gauḍīyas note that Akrūra is not theatrically humble; he simply diagnoses the materialist self by its real symptom — fixation on objects.
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brahma
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the Vedas
Here brahma means the Veda — śabda-brahman. Gauḍīyas distinguish this from the impersonal Brahman: brahma in this verse is the sacred sound that, like darśana of Kṛṣṇa, is not given by birth-merit but by mercy.
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kīrtanam
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chanting, reciting
From √kīrt — to make known, to declare. In Gauḍīya theology kīrtana is the yuga-dharma of Kali; here it is invoked at its Vedic edge — the recitation of the mantras. Akrūra contrasts the ineligible reciter with himself: the unfit man at the gate of the Person.
Akrura then spoke, overcome with humility." It is rare that I, a materialist would get the chance to see the Lord, just as it in unusual for a born sudra to recite the Vedas."
He speaks with great humility (dainya—a sañcāri-bhāva). I consider whatever acts I did (etad) as the cause of seeing Kṛṣṇa, which is rare. Or I consider seeing him at this time (etad) a rare event. Or etad can simply refer to what he will later say: it is rare to see the Lord directly. He is the person fame destroys saṁsāra (uttamaḥ-śloka). I consider it something that is only achieved after many births by a person like me. Why? I am completely dedicated to material enjoyment (viṣayātmaṇaḥ) by prārabdha-karma. A similar example of rarity is given. A śūdra after many births can become a brāhmaṇa and then chant the Vedas. But a person born as a śūdra by karma can in this life also chant the Vedas by actions of special atonement.
He elaborates: it is rare to see the supreme Lord. Or after describing in general the Lord’s greatness, he elaborates that greatness: he is glorified as the most attractive (uttama-śloka) or as the person who destroys saṁsāra. I consider seeing him most rare. Why? I am materialistic (viṣayaṭmanaḥ). An example of rareness is give. Śudras are not qualified to recite the Vedas. The śudra cannot do the activities prescribed for the brāhmaṇa. Their activities are distinct. strī-śūdra-dvijabandhūnāṁ trayī na śruti-gocarā | The women, śudras and dvija-bandhus were not qualified to hear the Vedas. SB 1.4.25 By his nature the śudra is unqualified to recite or hear the Vedas.
- Are you honest about your own materialistic absorption, or do you dress it up?
- Could humility about your standing make Kṛṣṇa's mercy more vivid?
Akrūra holds himself in his own hand and weighs himself like a man weighing impure copper: a sense-bound life is not the metal that buys this audience. The Vedas in a śūdra's mouth — his image — is not snobbery, it is a man honestly listing his disqualifications.
My note
Source: vedabase.io