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Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 1.9.38

शितविशिखहतो विशीर्णदंश: क्षतजपरिप्लुत आततायिनो मे । प्रसभमभिससार मद्वधार्थं स भवतु मे भगवान् गतिर्मुकुन्द: ॥ ३८ ॥
śita-viśikha-hato viśīrṇa-daṁśaḥ
[shita-vishikha-hato visheerna-damshah]
kṣataja-paripluta ātatāyino me
[kshataja-paripluta aatataayino me]
prasabham abhisasāra mad-vadhārthaṁ
[prasabham abhisasaara mad-vadhaartham]
sa bhavatu me bhagavān gatir mukundaḥ
[sa bhavatu me bhagavaan gatir mukundah]
śita — sharp viśikha — arrows hataḥ — wounded by viśīrṇa-daṁśaḥ — scattered shield kṣataja — by wounds pariplutaḥ — smeared with blood ātatāyinaḥ — the great aggressor me — my prasabham — in an angry mood abhisasāra — began to move on mat-vadha-artham — for the purpose of killing me saḥ — He bhavatu — may become me — my bhagavān — the Personality of Godhead gatiḥ — destination mukundaḥ — who awards salvation.
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
śita-viśikha-hato viśīrṇa-daṁśaḥ
śita
sharp
viśikha
arrows
hataḥ
wounded by
viśīrṇa-daṁśaḥ
scattered shield
kṣataja-paripluta ātatāyino me
kṣataja
by wounds
pariplutaḥ
smeared with blood
ātatāyinaḥ
the great aggressor
me
my
prasabham abhisasāra mad-vadhārthaṁ
prasabham
in an angry mood
abhisasāra
began to move on
mat-vadha-artham
for the purpose of killing me
sa bhavatu me bhagavān gatir mukundaḥ
saḥ
He
bhavatu
may become
me
my
bhagavān
the Personality of Godhead
gatiḥ
destination
mukundaḥ
who awards salvation.
May He, Lord Śrī Kṛṣṇa, the Personality of Godhead, who awards salvation, be my ultimate destination. On the battlefield He charged me, as if angry because of the wounds dealt by my sharp arrows. His shield was scattered, and His body was smeared with blood due to the wounds.

The dealings of Lord Kṛṣṇa and Bhīṣmadeva on the Battlefield of Kurukṣetra are interesting because the activities of Lord Śrī Kṛṣṇa appeared to be partial to Arjuna and at enmity with Bhīṣmadeva; but factually all this was especially meant to show special favor to Bhīṣmadeva, a great devotee of the Lord. The astounding feature of such dealings is that a devotee can please the Lord by playing the part of an enemy. The Lord, being absolute, can accept service from His pure devotee even in the garb of an enemy. The Supreme Lord cannot have any enemy, nor can a so-called enemy harm Him because He is ajita, or unconquerable. But still He takes pleasure when His pure devotee beats Him like an enemy or rebukes Him from a superior position, although no one can be superior to the Lord. These are some of the transcendental reciprocatory dealings of the devotee with the Lord. And those who have no information of pure devotional service cannot penetrate into the mystery of such dealings. Bhīṣmadeva played the part of a valiant warrior, and he purposely pierced the body of the Lord so that to the common eyes it appeared that the Lord was wounded, but factually all this was to bewilder the nondevotees. The all-spiritual body cannot be wounded, and a devotee cannot become the enemy of the Lord. Had it been so, Bhīṣmadeva would not have desired to have the very same Lord as the ultimate destination of his life. Had Bhīṣmadeva been an enemy of the Lord, Lord Kṛṣṇa could have annihilated him without even moving. There was no need to come before Bhīṣmadeva with blood and wounds. But He did so because the warrior devotee wanted to see the transcendental beauty of the Lord decorated with wounds created by a pure devotee. This is the way of exchanging transcendental rasa, or relations between the Lord and the servitor. By such dealings both the Lord and the devotee become glorified in their respective positions. The Lord was so angry that Arjuna checked Him when He was moving towards Bhīṣmadeva, but in spite of Arjuna’s checking, He proceeded towards Bhīṣmadeva as a lover goes to a lover, without caring for hindrances. Apparently His determination was to kill Bhīṣmadeva, but factually it was to please him as a great devotee of the Lord. The Lord is undoubtedly the deliverer of all conditioned souls. The impersonalists desire salvation from Him, and He always awards them according to their aspiration, but here Bhīṣmadeva aspires to see the Lord in His personal feature. All pure devotees aspire for this.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura Gauḍīya
Translation
O Kṛṣṇa! Let my only goal be Mukunda, who, afflicted by my sharp arrows, armor broken, covered in blood, rushed towards me, his enemy, with great force, in order to kill me.
Commentary

When Kṛṣṇa got down from the chariot he became covered with blood, because the earth was covered with rivers of blood from the slain warriors. How did his armor get pierced? It was struck by my sharp arrows. I fired the arrows to increase the thrill of his anger. In other words, he pierced the armor before Kṛṣṇa got down from the chariot. With force (prasabham) he protected Arjuna and came towards me with the intention “Today I will kill Bhīṣma with my own hands.” The word abhisasāra is used to indicate a hero desiring to meet his lover. In a similar manner I became extraordinarily happy when Kṛṣṇa approached me in anger. May my goal be no one else, only Mukunda, giver of liberation, who acted in this way. O Kṛṣṇa! I have offered only this prayer to you.

Let Him, scattered shield and bleeding body, be my ultimate destination. He charged me as if angry. Bhīṣma's final image is not of a placid Kṛṣṇa but of a fierce, wounded, charging One. Love includes the intensity.
Reflection Questions
  • Do I let the Lord be fierce in my imagination, or only sweet?
  • What kind of intensity might my devotion be missing?
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