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Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 1.19.2

ध्रुवं ततो मे कृतदेवहेलनाद् दुरत्ययं व्यसनं नातिदीर्घात् । तदस्तु कामं ह्यघनिष्कृताय मे यथा न कुर्यां पुनरेवमद्धा ॥ २ ॥
dhruvaṁ tato me kṛta-deva-helanād
[dhruvam tato me krita-deva-helanaad]
duratyayaṁ vyasanaṁ nāti-dīrghāt
[duratyayam vyasanam naati-deerghaat]
tad astu kāmaṁ hy agha-niṣkṛtāya me
[tad astu kaamam hy agha-nishkritaaya me]
yathā na kuryāṁ punar evam addhā
[yathaa na kuryaam punar evam addhaa]
dhruvam — sure and certain tataḥ — therefore me — my kṛta-deva-helanāt — because of disobeying the orders of the Lord duratyayam — very difficult vyasanam — calamity na — not ati — greatly dīrghāt — far off tat — that astu — let it be kāmam — desire without reservations hi — certainly agha — sins niṣkṛtāya — for getting free me — my yathā — so that na — never kuryām — shall I do it punaḥ — again evam — as I have done addhā — directly.
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
dhruvaṁ tato me kṛta-deva-helanād
dhruvam
sure and certain
tataḥ
therefore
me
my
kṛta-deva-helanāt
because of disobeying the orders of the Lord
duratyayaṁ vyasanaṁ nāti-dīrghāt
duratyayam
very difficult
vyasanam
calamity
na
not
ati
greatly
dīrghāt
far off
tad astu kāmaṁ hy agha-niṣkṛtāya me
tat
that
astu
let it be
kāmam
desire without reservations
hi
certainly
agha
sins
niṣkṛtāya
for getting free
me
my
yathā na kuryāṁ punar evam addhā
yathā
so that
na
never
kuryām
shall I do it
punaḥ
again
evam
as I have done
addhā
directly.
[King Parīkṣit thought:] Due to my neglecting the injunctions of the Supreme Lord I must certainly expect some difficulty to overcome me in the near future. I now desire without reservation that the calamity come now, for in this way I may be freed of the sinful action and not commit such an offense again.

The Supreme Lord enjoins that brāhmaṇas and cows must be given all protection. The Lord is Himself very much inclined to do good to brāhmaṇas and cows ( go-brāhmaṇa-hitāya ca ). Mahārāja Parīkṣit knew all this, and thus he concluded that his insulting a powerful brāhmaṇa was certainly to be punished by the laws of the Lord, and he was expecting something very difficult in the very near future. He therefore desired the imminent calamity to fall on him and not on his family members. A man’s personal misconduct affects all his family members. Therefore Mahārāja Parīkṣit desired the calamity to fall on him alone. By suffering personally he would be restrained from future sins, and at the same time the sin which he had committed would be counteracted so that his descendants would not suffer. That is the way a responsible devotee thinks. The family members of a devotee also share the effects of a devotee’s service unto the Lord. Mahārāja Prahlāda saved his demon father by his personal devotional service. A devotee son in the family is the greatest boon or blessing of the Lord.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura Gauḍīya
Translation
Because of my disrespect for this godly person it is certain that unpreventable misfortune will come very soon. Let that be direct atonement for my sin in full force, so that I will not commit such an act again.
Commentary

It (the misfortune) should affect me directly (addhā), not my sons and others.

Parīkṣit thought: due to my neglect of the Lord's injunctions some difficulty must come. I desire it without reservation, for it may free me from such acts. Welcoming consequence is a high spiritual posture.
Reflection Questions
  • What consequence could I welcome instead of dodge?
  • Where would full acceptance of result accelerate my freedom?
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