SB 1.15.3 — FolioCorpus

Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam 1.15.3

कृच्छ्रेण संस्तभ्य शुच: पाणिनामृज्य नेत्रयो: । परोक्षेण समुन्नद्धप्रणयौत्कण्ठ्यकातर: ॥ ३ ॥

kṛcchreṇa saṁstabhya śucaḥ

[krichchrena samstabhya shuchah]

pāṇināmṛjya netrayoḥ

[paaninaamrijya netrayoh]

parokṣeṇa samunnaddha-

[parokshena samunnaddha-]

praṇayautkaṇṭhya-kātaraḥ

[pranayautkanthya-kaatarah]

Word-for-word

kṛcchreṇa — with great difficulty saṁstabhya — by checking the force śucaḥ — of bereavement pāṇinā — with his hands āmṛjya — smearing netrayoḥ — the eyes parokṣeṇa — due to being out of sight samunnaddha — increasingly praṇaya-autkaṇṭhya — eagerly thinking of the affection kātaraḥ — distressed.

Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)

kṛcchreṇa saṁstabhya śucaḥ

kṛcchreṇa

with great difficulty

saṁstabhya

by checking the force

śucaḥ

of bereavement

pāṇināmṛjya netrayoḥ

pāṇinā

with his hands

āmṛjya

smearing

netrayoḥ

the eyes

parokṣeṇa samunnaddha-

parokṣeṇa

due to being out of sight

samunnaddha

increasingly

praṇayautkaṇṭhya-kātaraḥ

praṇaya-autkaṇṭhya

eagerly thinking of the affection

kātaraḥ

distressed.

With great difficulty he checked the tears of grief that smeared his eyes. He was very distressed because Lord Kṛṣṇa was out of his sight, and he increasingly felt affection for Him.

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Viśvanātha Cakravartī Ṭhākura Gauḍīya

Translation

Stopping with difficulty the tears and wiping his eyes with his hands, extremely pained by the increased longing of love due to separation, remembering the pure friendship with Kṛṣṇa, friendship mixed with servitude, and friendship mixed with parental feelings towards Kṛṣṇa, he spoke to the king with choked voice filled with tears.

Commentary

Stopping the tears of grief (śucaḥ) in his eyes, he wiped those tears which flowed anyway. Because of Kṛṣṇa not being present (parokṣeṇa), he was in pain. Sakhyam is mutual affection and mutual helping each other. Maitrīm is sakhya mixed with dāsya. Sauhrḍam is sakhya mixed with vātsalya.

Personal Guidance

With great difficulty he checked tears of grief that smeared his eyes. Distressed because Kṛṣṇa was out of sight, he felt increasing affection. Absence increases love, then increases grief. Both at once.

Reflection Questions

Whose absence is now intensifying love I didn't know was that deep?
Where could I let myself feel both more freely?

📝 My note

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