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Madhya-līlā · 2

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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.1

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vicchede ’smin prabhor antya- līlā-sūtrānuvarṇane gaurasya kṛṣṇa-viccheda- pralāpādy anuvarṇyate
[vichchede ’smin prabhor antya- leelaa-sootraanuvarnane gaurasya krishna-vichcheda- pralaapaady anuvarnyate]
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vicchede ’smin prabhor antya- līlā-sūtrānuvarṇane gaurasya kṛṣṇa-viccheda- pralāpādy anuvarṇyate
While relating in synopsis form the last division of the pastimes of Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu, in this chapter I shall describe the Lord’s transcendental ecstasy, which appears like madness due to His separation from Kṛṣṇa.

In this second chapter, the activities of Lord Caitanya that took place after the Lord accepted sannyāsa are generally described. Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu is specifically mentioned here as being gaura, or of fair complexion. Kṛṣṇa is generally known to be blackish, but when He is absorbed in the thought of the gopīs, who are all of fair complexion, Kṛṣṇa Himself also becomes fair. Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu in particular felt separation from Kṛṣṇa very deeply, exactly like a lover who is dejected in separation from the beloved. Such feelings, which were expressed by Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu for nearly twelve years at the end of His pastimes, are described in brief in this second chapter of Madhya-līlā.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.2

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jaya jaya śrī-caitanya jaya nityānanda jayādvaitacandra jaya gaura-bhakta-vṛnda
[jaya jaya shree-chaitanya jaya nityaananda jayaadvaitachandra jaya gaura-bhakta-vrinda]
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jaya jaya śrī-caitanya jaya nityānanda jayādvaitacandra jaya gaura-bhakta-vṛnda
All glories to Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu! All glories to Lord Nityānanda! All glories to Advaitacandra! And all glories to all the devotees of the Lord!
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.3

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śeṣa ye rahila prabhura dvādaśa vatsara kṛṣṇera viyoga-sphūrti haya nirantara
[shesha ye rahila prabhura dvaadasha vatsara krishnera viyoga-sphoorti haya nirantara]
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śeṣa ye rahila prabhura dvādaśa vatsara kṛṣṇera viyoga-sphūrti haya nirantara
During His last twelve years, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu always manifested all the symptoms of ecstasy in separation from Kṛṣṇa.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.4

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śrī-rādhikāra ceṣṭā yena uddhava-darśane ei-mata daśā prabhura haya rātri-dine
[shree-raadhikaara cheshtaa yena uddhava-darshane ei-mata dashaa prabhura haya raatri-dine]
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śrī-rādhikāra ceṣṭā yena uddhava-darśane ei-mata daśā prabhura haya rātri-dine
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu’s state of mind, day and night, was practically identical to Rādhārāṇī’s state of mind when Uddhava came to Vṛndāvana to see the gopīs.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.5

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nirantara haya prabhura viraha-unmāda bhrama-maya ceṣṭā sadā, pralāpa-maya vāda
[nirantara haya prabhura viraha-unmaada bhrama-maya cheshtaa sadaa, pralaapa-maya vaada]
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nirantara haya prabhura viraha-unmāda bhrama-maya ceṣṭā sadā, pralāpa-maya vāda
The Lord constantly exhibited a state of mind reflecting the madness of separation. All His activities were based on forgetfulness, and His talks were always based on madness.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.6

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roma-kūpe raktodgama, danta saba hāle kṣaṇe aṅga kṣīṇa haya, kṣaṇe aṅga phule
[roma-koope raktodgama, danta saba haale kshane anga ksheena haya, kshane anga phule]
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roma-kūpe raktodgama, danta saba hāle kṣaṇe aṅga kṣīṇa haya, kṣaṇe aṅga phule
Blood flowed from all the pores of His body, and all His teeth were loosened. At one moment His whole body became slender, and at another moment His whole body became fat.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.7

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gambhīrā-bhitare rātre nāhi nidrā-lava bhitte mukha-śira ghaṣe, kṣata haya saba
[gambheeraa-bhitare raatre naahi nidraa-lava bhitte mukha-shira ghashe, kshata haya saba]
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gambhīrā-bhitare rātre nāhi nidrā-lava bhitte mukha-śira ghaṣe, kṣata haya saba
The small room beyond the corridor is called the Gambhīrā. Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu used to stay in that room, but He did not sleep for a moment. All night He used to grind His mouth and head on the wall, and His face sustained injuries all over.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.8

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tina dvāre kapāṭa, prabhu yāyena bāhire kabhu siṁha-dvāre paḍe, kabhu sindhu-nīre
[tina dvaare kapaata, prabhu yaayena baahire kabhu simha-dvaare pade, kabhu sindhu-neere]
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tina dvāre kapāṭa, prabhu yāyena bāhire kabhu siṁha-dvāre paḍe, kabhu sindhu-nīre
Although the three doors of the house were always closed, the Lord would nonetheless go out and sometimes would be found at the Jagannātha temple, before the gate known as Siṁha-dvāra. And sometimes the Lord would fall flat into the sea.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.9

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caṭaka parvata dekhi’ ‘govardhana’ bhrame dhāñā cale ārta-nāda kariyā krandane
[chataka parvata dekhi’ ‘govardhana’ bhrame dhaanaa chale aarta-naada kariyaa krandane]
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caṭaka parvata dekhi’ ‘govardhana’ bhrame dhāñā cale ārta-nāda kariyā krandane
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu would also run very fast across the sand dunes, mistaking them for Govardhana. As He ran, He would wail and cry loudly.

Because of the winds of the sea, sometimes the sand would form dunes. Such sand dunes are called caṭaka parvata. Instead of seeing these sand dunes simply as hills of sand, the Lord would take them to be Govardhana Hill. Sometimes He would run toward these dunes at high speed, crying very loudly, expressing the state of mind exhibited by Rādhārāṇī. Thus Caitanya Mahāprabhu was absorbed in thoughts of Kṛṣṇa and His pastimes. His state of mind brought Him the atmosphere of Vṛndāvana and Govardhana Hill, and thus He enjoyed the transcendental bliss of separation and meeting.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.10

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upavanodyāna dekhi’ vṛndāvana-jñāna tāhāṅ yāi’ nāce, gāya, kṣaṇe mūrcchā yā’na
[upavanodyaana dekhi’ vrindaavana-jnaana taahaan yaai’ naache, gaaya, kshane moorchchaa yaa’na]
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upavanodyāna dekhi’ vṛndāvana-jñāna tāhāṅ yāi’ nāce, gāya, kṣaṇe mūrcchā yā’na
Sometimes Caitanya Mahāprabhu mistook the small parks of the city for Vṛndāvana. Sometimes He would go there, dance and chant and sometimes fall unconscious in spiritual ecstasy.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.11

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kāhāṅ nāhi śuni yei bhāvera vikāra sei bhāva haya prabhura śarīre pracāra
[kaahaan naahi shuni yei bhaavera vikaara sei bhaava haya prabhura shareere prachaara]
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kāhāṅ nāhi śuni yei bhāvera vikāra sei bhāva haya prabhura śarīre pracāra
The extraordinary transformations of the body due to transcendental feelings would never have been possible for anyone but the Lord, in whose body all transformations were manifest.

The ecstatic transformations of the body described in such exalted literatures as the Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu are practically not seen in this material world. However, these symptoms were perfectly present in the body of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu. These symptoms are indicative of mahābhāva, or the highest ecstasy. Sometimes sahajiyās artificially imitate these symptoms, but experienced devotees reject such imitations immediately. The author admits herein that these symptoms are not to be found anywhere but in the body of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.12

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hasta-padera sandhi saba vitasti-pramāṇe sandhi chāḍi’ bhinna haye, carma rahe sthāne
[hasta-padera sandhi saba vitasti-pramaane sandhi chaadi’ bhinna haye, charma rahe sthaane]
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hasta-padera sandhi saba vitasti-pramāṇe sandhi chāḍi’ bhinna haye, carma rahe sthāne
The joints of His hands and legs would sometimes become separated by eight inches, and they remained connected only by the skin.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.13

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hasta, pada, śira saba śarīra-bhitare praviṣṭa haya — kūrma-rūpa dekhiye prabhure
[hasta, pada, shira saba shareera-bhitare pravishta haya — koorma-roopa dekhiye prabhure]
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hasta, pada, śira saba śarīra-bhitare praviṣṭa haya — kūrma-rūpa dekhiye prabhure
Sometimes Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu’s hands, legs and head would all enter within His body, just like the withdrawn limbs of a tortoise.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.14

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ei mata adbhuta-bhāva śarīre prakāśa manete śūnyatā, vākye hā-hā-hutāśa
[ei mata adbhuta-bhaava shareere prakaasha manete shoonyataa, vaakye haa-haa-hutaasha]
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ei mata adbhuta-bhāva śarīre prakāśa manete śūnyatā, vākye hā-hā-hutāśa
In this way Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu used to manifest wonderful ecstatic symptoms. His mind appeared vacant, and there were only hopelessness and disappointment in His words.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.15

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kāhāṅ mora prāṇa-nātha muralī-vadana kāhāṅ karoṅ kāhāṅ pāṅ vrajendra-nandana
[kaahaan mora praana-naatha muralee-vadana kaahaan karon kaahaan paan vrajendra-nandana]
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kāhāṅ mora prāṇa-nātha muralī-vadana kāhāṅ karoṅ kāhāṅ pāṅ vrajendra-nandana
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu used to express His mind in this way: “Where is the Lord of My life, who is playing His flute? What shall I do now? Where should I go to find the son of Mahārāja Nanda?
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.16

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kāhāre kahiba, kebā jāne mora duḥkha vrajendra-nandana vinu phāṭe mora buka
[kaahaare kahiba, kebaa jaane mora duhkha vrajendra-nandana vinu phaate mora buka]
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kāhāre kahiba, kebā jāne mora duḥkha vrajendra-nandana vinu phāṭe mora buka
“To whom should I speak? Who can understand My disappointment? Without the son of Nanda Mahārāja, My heart is broken.”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.17

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ei-mata vilāpa kare vihvala antara rāyera nāṭaka-śloka paḍe nirantara
[ei-mata vilaapa kare vihvala antara raayera naataka-shloka pade nirantara]
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ei-mata vilāpa kare vihvala antara rāyera nāṭaka-śloka paḍe nirantara
In this way Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu always expressed bewilderment and lamented in separation from Kṛṣṇa. At such times He used to recite the ślokas from Rāmānanda Rāya’s drama, known as Jagannātha-vallabha-nāṭaka.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.18

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prema-ccheda-rujo ’vagacchati harir nāyaṁ na ca prema vā sthānāsthānam avaiti nāpi madano jānāti no durbalāḥ anyo veda na cānya-duḥkham akhilaṁ no jīvanaṁ vāśravaṁ dvi-trāṇy eva dināni yauvanam idaṁ hā-hā vidhe kā gatiḥ
[prema-chcheda-rujo ’vagachchati harir naayam na cha prema vaa sthaanaasthaanam avaiti naapi madano jaanaati no durbalaah anyo veda na chaanya-duhkham akhilam no jeevanam vaashravam dvi-traany eva dinaani yauvanam idam haa-haa vidhe kaa gatih]
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prema-ccheda-rujo ’vagacchati harir nāyaṁ na ca prema vā sthānāsthānam avaiti nāpi madano jānāti no durbalāḥ anyo veda na cānya-duḥkham akhilaṁ no jīvanaṁ vāśravaṁ dvi-trāṇy eva dināni yauvanam idaṁ hā-hā vidhe kā gatiḥ
[Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī used to lament:] “ ‘Our Kṛṣṇa does not realize what We have suffered from injuries inflicted in the course of loving affairs. We are actually misused by love because love does not know where to strike and where not to strike. Even Cupid does not know of Our very much weakened condition. What should I tell anyone? No one can understand another’s difficulties. Our life is actually not under Our control, for youth will remain for two or three days and soon be finished. In this condition, O creator, what will be Our destination?’ ”

This verse is from the Jagannātha-vallabha-nāṭaka (3.9) of Rāmānanda Rāya.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.19

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upajila premāṅkura, bhāṅgila ye duḥkha-pūra, kṛṣṇa tāhā nāhi kare pāna bāhire nāgara-rāja, bhitare śaṭhera kāja, para-nārī vadhe sāvadhāna
[upajila premaankura, bhaangila ye duhkha-poora, krishna taahaa naahi kare paana baahire naagara-raaja, bhitare shathera kaaja, para-naaree vadhe saavadhaana]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
upajila premāṅkura, bhāṅgila ye duḥkha-pūra, kṛṣṇa tāhā nāhi kare pāna bāhire nāgara-rāja, bhitare śaṭhera kāja, para-nārī vadhe sāvadhāna
[Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī spoke thus, in distress due to separation from Kṛṣṇa:] “Oh, what shall I say of My distress? After I met Kṛṣṇa My loving propensities sprouted, but upon separating from Him I sustained a great shock, which is now continuing like the sufferings of a disease. The only physician for this disease is Kṛṣṇa Himself, but He is not taking care of this sprouting plant of devotional service. What can I say about the behavior of Kṛṣṇa? Outwardly He is a very attractive young lover, but at heart He is a great cheat, very expert in killing others’ wives.”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.20

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sakhi he, nā bujhiye vidhira vidhāna sukha lāgi’ kailuṅ prīta, haila duḥkha viparīta, ebe yāya, nā rahe parāṇa
[sakhi he, naa bujhiye vidhira vidhaana sukha laagi’ kailun preeta, haila duhkha vipareeta, ebe yaaya, naa rahe paraana]
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sakhi he, nā bujhiye vidhira vidhāna sukha lāgi’ kailuṅ prīta, haila duḥkha viparīta, ebe yāya, nā rahe parāṇa
[Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī continued lamenting about the consequences of loving Kṛṣṇa:] “My dear friend, I do not understand the regulative principles given by the creator. I loved Kṛṣṇa for happiness, but the result was just the opposite. I am now in an ocean of distress. It must be that now I am going to die, for My vital force no longer remains. This is My state of mind.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.21

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kuṭila premā ageyāna, nāhi jāne sthānāsthāna, bhāla-manda nāre vicārite krūra śaṭhera guṇa-ḍore, hāte-gale bāndhi’ more, rākhiyāche, nāri’ ukāśite
[kutila premaa ageyaana, naahi jaane sthaanaasthaana, bhaala-manda naare vichaarite kroora shathera guna-dore, haate-gale baandhi’ more, raakhiyaache, naari’ ukaashite]
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kuṭila premā ageyāna, nāhi jāne sthānāsthāna, bhāla-manda nāre vicārite krūra śaṭhera guṇa-ḍore, hāte-gale bāndhi’ more, rākhiyāche, nāri’ ukāśite
“By nature loving affairs are very crooked. They are not entered with sufficient knowledge, nor do they consider whether a place is suitable or not, nor do they look forward to the results. By the ropes of His good qualities, Kṛṣṇa, who is so unkind, has bound My neck and hands, and I am unable to get relief.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.22

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ye madana tanu-hīna, para-drohe paravīṇa, pāṅca bāṇa sandhe anukṣaṇa abalāra śarīre, vindhi’ kaila jarajare, duḥkha deya, nā laya jīvana
[ye madana tanu-heena, para-drohe paraveena, paancha baana sandhe anukshana abalaara shareere, vindhi’ kaila jarajare, duhkha deya, naa laya jeevana]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
ye madana tanu-hīna, para-drohe paravīṇa, pāṅca bāṇa sandhe anukṣaṇa abalāra śarīre, vindhi’ kaila jarajare, duḥkha deya, nā laya jīvana
“In My loving affairs there is a person named Madana. His qualities are thus: Personally He possesses no gross body, yet He is very expert in giving pains to others. He has five arrows, and fixing them on His bow, He shoots them into the bodies of innocent women. Thus these women become invalids. It would be better if He took My life without hesitation, but He does not do so. He simply gives Me pain.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.23

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anyera ye duḥkha mane, anye tāhā nāhi jāne, satya ei śāstrera vicāre anya jana kāhāṅ likhi, nā jānaye prāṇa-sakhī, yāte kahe dhairya dharibāre
[anyera ye duhkha mane, anye taahaa naahi jaane, satya ei shaastrera vichaare anya jana kaahaan likhi, naa jaanaye praana-sakhee, yaate kahe dhairya dharibaare]
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anyera ye duḥkha mane, anye tāhā nāhi jāne, satya ei śāstrera vicāre anya jana kāhāṅ likhi, nā jānaye prāṇa-sakhī, yāte kahe dhairya dharibāre
“In the scriptures it is said that one person can never know the unhappiness in the mind of another. Therefore what can I say of My dear friends, Lalitā and the others? Nor can they understand the unhappiness within Me. They simply try to console Me repeatedly, saying, ‘Dear friend, be patient.’
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.24

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‘kṛṣṇa — kṛpā-pārāvāra, kabhu karibena aṅgīkāra’ sakhi, tora e vyartha vacana jīvera jīvana cañcala, yena padma-patrera jala, tata dina jīve kon jana
[‘krishna — kripaa-paaraavaara, kabhu karibena angeekaara’ sakhi, tora e vyartha vachana jeevera jeevana chanchala, yena padma-patrera jala, tata dina jeeve kon jana]
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‘kṛṣṇa — kṛpā-pārāvāra, kabhu karibena aṅgīkāra’ sakhi, tora e vyartha vacana jīvera jīvana cañcala, yena padma-patrera jala, tata dina jīve kon jana
“I say, ‘My dear friends, you are asking Me to be patient, saying that Kṛṣṇa is an ocean of mercy and that some time in the future He will accept Me. However, I must say that this will not console Me. A living entity’s life is very flickering. It is like water on the leaf of a lotus flower. Who will live long enough to expect Kṛṣṇa’s mercy?
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.25

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śata vatsara paryanta, jīvera jīvana anta, ei vākya kaha nā vicāri’ nārīra yauvana-dhana, yāre kṛṣṇa kare mana, se yauvana-dina dui-cāri
[shata vatsara paryanta, jeevera jeevana anta, ei vaakya kaha naa vichaari’ naareera yauvana-dhana, yaare krishna kare mana, se yauvana-dina dui-chaari]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
śata vatsara paryanta, jīvera jīvana anta, ei vākya kaha nā vicāri’ nārīra yauvana-dhana, yāre kṛṣṇa kare mana, se yauvana-dina dui-cāri
“ ‘A human being does not live more than a hundred years. You should also consider that the youthfulness of a woman, which is the only attraction for Kṛṣṇa, remains for only a few days.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.26

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agni yaiche nija-dhāma, dekhāiyā abhirāma, pataṅgīre ākarṣiyā māre kṛṣṇa aiche nija-guṇa, dekhāiyā hare mana, pāche duḥkha-samudrete ḍāre
[agni yaiche nija-dhaama, dekhaaiyaa abhiraama, patangeere aakarshiyaa maare krishna aiche nija-guna, dekhaaiyaa hare mana, paache duhkha-samudrete daare]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
agni yaiche nija-dhāma, dekhāiyā abhirāma, pataṅgīre ākarṣiyā māre kṛṣṇa aiche nija-guṇa, dekhāiyā hare mana, pāche duḥkha-samudrete ḍāre
“ ‘If you say that Kṛṣṇa is an ocean of transcendental qualities and therefore must be merciful some day, I can only say that He is like fire, which attracts moths by its dazzling brightness and kills them. Such are the qualities of Kṛṣṇa. By showing Us His transcendental qualities, He attracts Our minds, and then later, by separating from Us, He drowns Us in an ocean of unhappiness.’ ”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.27

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eteka vilāpa kari’, viṣāde śrī-gaurahari, ughāḍiyā duḥkhera kapāṭa bhāvera taraṅga-bale, nānā-rūpe mana cale, āra eka śloka kaila pāṭha
[eteka vilaapa kari’, vishaade shree-gaurahari, ughaadiyaa duhkhera kapaata bhaavera taranga-bale, naanaa-roope mana chale, aara eka shloka kaila paatha]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
eteka vilāpa kari’, viṣāde śrī-gaurahari, ughāḍiyā duḥkhera kapāṭa bhāvera taraṅga-bale, nānā-rūpe mana cale, āra eka śloka kaila pāṭha
In this way, Lord Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu lamented in a great ocean of sadness, and thus He opened the doors of His unhappiness. Forced by the waves of ecstasy, His mind wandered over transcendental mellows, and He recited another verse [as follows].
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.28

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śrī-kṛṣṇa-rūpādi-niṣevaṇaṁ vinā vyarthāni me ’hāny akhilendriyāṇy alam pāṣāṇa-śuṣkendhana-bhārakāṇy aho bibharmi vā tāni kathaṁ hata-trapaḥ
[shree-krishna-roopaadi-nishevanam vinaa vyarthaani me ’haany akhilendriyaany alam paashaana-shushkendhana-bhaarakaany aho bibharmi vaa taani katham hata-trapah]
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śrī-kṛṣṇa-rūpādi-niṣevaṇaṁ vinā vyarthāni me ’hāny akhilendriyāṇy alam pāṣāṇa-śuṣkendhana-bhārakāṇy aho bibharmi vā tāni kathaṁ hata-trapaḥ
“ ‘My dear friends, unless I serve the transcendental form, qualities and pastimes of Śrī Kṛṣṇa, all My days and all My senses will become entirely useless. Now I am uselessly bearing the burden of My senses, which are like stone blocks and dried wood. I do not know how long I will be able to continue without shame.’
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.29

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vaṁśī-gānāmṛta-dhāma, lāvaṇyāmṛta-janma-sthāna, ye nā dekhe se cāṅda vadana se nayane kibā kāja, paḍuka tāra muṇḍe vāja, se nayana rahe ki kāraṇa
[vamshee-gaanaamrita-dhaama, laavanyaamrita-janma-sthaana, ye naa dekhe se chaanda vadana se nayane kibaa kaaja, paduka taara munde vaaja, se nayana rahe ki kaarana]
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vaṁśī-gānāmṛta-dhāma, lāvaṇyāmṛta-janma-sthāna, ye nā dekhe se cāṅda vadana se nayane kibā kāja, paḍuka tāra muṇḍe vāja, se nayana rahe ki kāraṇa
“Of what use are the eyes of one who does not see the face of Kṛṣṇa, which resembles the moon and is the birthplace of all beauty and the reservoir of the nectarean songs of His flute? Oh, let a thunderbolt strike his head! Why does he keep such eyes?

The moonlike face of Kṛṣṇa is the reservoir of nectarean songs and the abode of His flute. It is also the root of all bodily beauty. The gopīs think that if their eyes are not engaged in seeing the beautiful face of Kṛṣṇa, it would be better for them to be struck by a thunderbolt. For the gopīs, to see anything but Kṛṣṇa is uninteresting and, indeed, detestable. The gopīs are never pleased to see anything but Kṛṣṇa. The only solace for their eyes is the beautiful moonlike face of Kṛṣṇa, the worshipful object of all senses. When they cannot see the beautiful face of Kṛṣṇa, they actually see everything as vacant, and they desire to be struck by a thunderbolt. They do not find any reason to maintain their eyes when they are bereft of the beauty of Kṛṣṇa.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.30

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sakhi he, śuna, mora hata vidhi-bala mora vapu-citta-mana, sakala indriya-gaṇa, kṛṣṇa vinu sakala viphala
[sakhi he, shuna, mora hata vidhi-bala mora vapu-chitta-mana, sakala indriya-gana, krishna vinu sakala viphala]
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sakhi he, śuna, mora hata vidhi-bala mora vapu-citta-mana, sakala indriya-gaṇa, kṛṣṇa vinu sakala viphala
“My dear friends, please hear Me. I have lost all providential strength. Without Kṛṣṇa, My body, consciousness and mind, as well as all My senses, are useless.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.31

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kṛṣṇera madhura vāṇī, amṛtera taraṅgiṇī, tāra praveśa nāhi ye śravaṇe kāṇākaḍi-chidra sama, jāniha se śravaṇa, tāra janma haila akāraṇe
[krishnera madhura vaanee, amritera taranginee, taara pravesha naahi ye shravane kaanaakadi-chidra sama, jaaniha se shravana, taara janma haila akaarane]
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kṛṣṇera madhura vāṇī, amṛtera taraṅgiṇī, tāra praveśa nāhi ye śravaṇe kāṇākaḍi-chidra sama, jāniha se śravaṇa, tāra janma haila akāraṇe
“Topics about Kṛṣṇa are like waves of nectar. If such nectar does not enter one’s ear, the ear is no better than the hole of a damaged conchshell. Such an ear is created for no purpose.

In this connection, Śrīla Bhaktisiddhānta Sarasvatī Ṭhākura quotes the following verses from Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam (2.3.17-24): āyur harati vai puṁsām udyann astaṁ ca yann asautasyarte yat-kṣaṇo nīta uttama-śloka-vārtayā taravaḥ kiṁ na jīvanti bhastrāḥ kiṁ na śvasanty utana khādanti na mehanti kiṁ grāme paśavo ’pare śva-viḍ-varāhoṣṭra-kharaiḥ saṁstutaḥ puruṣaḥ paśuḥna yat-karṇa-pathopeto jātu nāma gadāgrajaḥ bile batorukrama-vikramān ye na śṛṇvataḥ karṇa-puṭe narasyajihvāsatī dārdurikeva sūta na copagāyaty urugāya-gāthāḥ bhāraḥ paraṁ paṭṭa-kirīṭa-juṣṭam apy uttamāṅgaṁ na namen mukundamśāvau karau no kurute saparyāṁ harer lasat-kāñcana-kaṅkaṇau vā barhāyite te nayane narāṇāṁ liṅgāni viṣṇor na nirīkṣato yepādau nṛṇāṁ tau druma-janma-bhājau kṣetrāṇi nānuvrajato harer yau jīvañ-chavo bhāgavatāṅghri-reṇuṁ na jātu martyo ’bhilabheta yas tuśrī-viṣṇu-padyā manujas tulasyāḥ śvasañ-chavo yas tu na veda gandham tad aśma-sāraṁ hṛdayaṁ batedaṁ yad gṛhyamāṇair hari-nāmadheyaiḥna vikriyetātha yadā vikāro netre jalaṁ gātra-ruheṣu harṣaḥ “Both by rising and setting, the sun decreases the duration of life of everyone except one who utilizes the time by discussing topics of the all-good Personality of Godhead. Do the trees not live? Do the bellows of the blacksmith not breathe? All around us, do the beasts not eat and discharge semen? Men who are like dogs, hogs, camels and asses praise those men who never listen to the transcendental pastimes of Lord Śrī Kṛṣṇa, the deliverer from evils. One who has not listened to the messages about the prowess and marvelous acts of the Personality of Godhead and has not sung or chanted loudly the worthy songs about the Lord should be considered to possess ears like the holes of snakes and a tongue like that of a frog. The upper portion of the body, though crowned with a silk turban, is only a heavy burden if not bowed down before the Personality of Godhead, who can award mukti [freedom]. And the hands, though decorated with glittering bangles, are like those of a dead man if not engaged in the service of the Personality of Godhead Hari. The eyes which do not look at the symbolic representations of the Personality of Godhead Viṣṇu [His forms, names, qualities, etc.] are like those printed on the plumes of a peacock, and the legs which do not move to the holy places [where the Lord is remembered] are considered to be like tree trunks. The person who has not at any time received upon his head the dust from the feet of a pure devotee of the Lord is certainly a dead body. And the person who has never experienced the flavor of the tulasī leaves from the lotus feet of the Lord is also a dead body, although breathing. Certainly that heart is steel-framed which, in spite of one’s chanting the holy name of the Lord with concentration, does not change and feel ecstasy, at which time tears fill the eyes and the hairs stand on end.”

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.32

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kṛṣṇera adharāmṛta, kṛṣṇa-guṇa-carita, sudhā-sāra-svāda-vinindana tāra svāda ye nā jāne, janmiyā nā maila kene, se rasanā bheka jihvā sama
[krishnera adharaamrita, krishna-guna-charita, sudhaa-saara-svaada-vinindana taara svaada ye naa jaane, janmiyaa naa maila kene, se rasanaa bheka jihvaa sama]
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kṛṣṇera adharāmṛta, kṛṣṇa-guṇa-carita, sudhā-sāra-svāda-vinindana tāra svāda ye nā jāne, janmiyā nā maila kene, se rasanā bheka jihvā sama
“The nectar from the lips of Lord Kṛṣṇa and His transcendental qualities and characteristics surpass the taste of the essence of all nectar, and there is no fault in tasting such nectar. If one does not taste it, he should die immediately after birth, and his tongue is to be considered no better than the tongue of a frog.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.33

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mṛga-mada nīlotpala, milane ye parimala, yei hare tāra garva-māna hena kṛṣṇa-aṅga-gandha, yāra nāhi se sambandha, sei nāsā bhastrāra samāna
[mriga-mada neelotpala, milane ye parimala, yei hare taara garva-maana hena krishna-anga-gandha, yaara naahi se sambandha, sei naasaa bhastraara samaana]
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mṛga-mada nīlotpala, milane ye parimala, yei hare tāra garva-māna hena kṛṣṇa-aṅga-gandha, yāra nāhi se sambandha, sei nāsā bhastrāra samāna
“One’s nostrils are no better than the bellows of a blacksmith if one has not smelled the fragrance of Kṛṣṇa’s body, which is like the aroma of musk combined with that of the bluish lotus flower. Indeed, such combinations are actually defeated by the aroma of Kṛṣṇa’s body.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.34

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kṛṣṇa-kara-pada-tala, koṭi-candra-suśītala, tāra sparśa yena sparśa-maṇi tāra sparśa nāhi yāra, se yāuk chārakhāra, sei vapu lauha-sama jāni
[krishna-kara-pada-tala, koti-chandra-susheetala, taara sparsha yena sparsha-mani taara sparsha naahi yaara, se yaauk chaarakhaara, sei vapu lauha-sama jaani]
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kṛṣṇa-kara-pada-tala, koṭi-candra-suśītala, tāra sparśa yena sparśa-maṇi tāra sparśa nāhi yāra, se yāuk chārakhāra, sei vapu lauha-sama jāni
“The palms of Kṛṣṇa’s hands and the soles of His feet are so cool and pleasant that they can be compared only to the light of millions of moons. One who has touched such hands and feet has indeed tasted the effects of touchstone. If one has not touched them, his life is spoiled, and his body is like iron.”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.35

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kari’ eta vilapana, prabhu śacī-nandana, ughāḍiyā hṛdayera śoka dainya-nirveda-viṣāde, hṛdayera avasāde, punarapi paḍe eka śloka
[kari’ eta vilapana, prabhu shachee-nandana, ughaadiyaa hridayera shoka dainya-nirveda-vishaade, hridayera avasaade, punarapi pade eka shloka]
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kari’ eta vilapana, prabhu śacī-nandana, ughāḍiyā hṛdayera śoka dainya-nirveda-viṣāde, hṛdayera avasāde, punarapi paḍe eka śloka
Lamenting in this way, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu opened the doors of grief within His heart. Morose, humble and disappointed, He recited a verse again and again with a despondent heart.

In the Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu, the word dainya (humility) is explained as follows: “When unhappiness, fearfulness and the sense of having offended combine, one feels condemned. This sense of condemnation is described as dīnatā, humility. When one is subjected to such humility, he feels physically inactive, he apologizes, and his consciousness is disturbed. His mind is also restless, and many other symptoms are visible.” The word nirveda is also explained in the Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu: “One may feel unhappiness and separation, as well as jealousy and lamentation, due to not discharging one’s duties. The despondency that results is called nirveda. When one is captured by this despondency, thoughts, tears, loss of bodily luster, humility and heavy breathing result.” Viṣāda is also explained in the Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu: “When one fails to achieve his desired goal of life and repents for all his offenses, there is a state of regret called viṣāda.” The symptoms of avasāda are also explained: “One hankers to revive his original condition and inquires how to do so. There are also deep thought, heavy breathing, crying and lamentation, as well as a changing of the bodily color and drying up of the tongue.” In the Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu thirty-three such destructive symptoms are mentioned. They are expressed in words, in the eyebrows and in the eyes. These symptoms are called vyabhicārī bhāva, destructive ecstasy. If they continue, they are sometimes called sañcārī, or continued ecstasy.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.36

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yadā yāto daivān madhu-ripur asau locana-pathaṁ tadāsmākaṁ ceto madana-hatakenāhṛtam abhūt punar yasminn eṣa kṣaṇam api dṛśor eti padavīṁ vidhāsyāmas tasminn akhila-ghaṭikā ratna-khacitāḥ
[yadaa yaato daivaan madhu-ripur asau lochana-patham tadaasmaakam cheto madana-hatakenaahritam abhoot punar yasminn esha kshanam api drishor eti padaveem vidhaasyaamas tasminn akhila-ghatikaa ratna-khachitaah]
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yadā yāto daivān madhu-ripur asau locana-pathaṁ tadāsmākaṁ ceto madana-hatakenāhṛtam abhūt punar yasminn eṣa kṣaṇam api dṛśor eti padavīṁ vidhāsyāmas tasminn akhila-ghaṭikā ratna-khacitāḥ
“ ‘If by chance the transcendental form of Kṛṣṇa comes before My path of vision, My heart, injured from being beaten, will be stolen away by Cupid, happiness personified. Because I could not see the beautiful form of Kṛṣṇa to My heart’s content, when I again see His form I shall decorate the phases of time with many jewels.’

This verse is spoken by Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī in the Jagannātha-vallabha-nāṭaka (3.11) of Rāmānanda Rāya.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.37

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ye kāle vā svapane, dekhinu vaṁśī-vadane, sei kāle āilā dui vairi ‘ānanda’ āra ‘madana’, hari’ nila mora mana, dekhite nā pāinu netra bhari’
[ye kaale vaa svapane, dekhinu vamshee-vadane, sei kaale aailaa dui vairi ‘aananda’ aara ‘madana’, hari’ nila mora mana, dekhite naa paainu netra bhari’]
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ye kāle vā svapane, dekhinu vaṁśī-vadane, sei kāle āilā dui vairi ‘ānanda’ āra ‘madana’, hari’ nila mora mana, dekhite nā pāinu netra bhari’
“Whenever I had the chance to see Lord Kṛṣṇa’s face and His flute, even in a dream, two enemies would appear before Me. They were pleasure and Cupid, and since they took away My mind, I was not able to see the face of Kṛṣṇa to the full satisfaction of My eyes.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.38

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punaḥ yadi kona kṣaṇa, karāya kṛṣṇa daraśana tabe sei ghaṭī-kṣaṇa-pala diyā mālya-candana, nānā ratna-ābharaṇa, alaṅkṛta karimu sakala
[punah yadi kona kshana, karaaya krishna darashana tabe sei ghatee-kshana-pala diyaa maalya-chandana, naanaa ratna-aabharana, alankrita karimu sakala]
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punaḥ yadi kona kṣaṇa, karāya kṛṣṇa daraśana tabe sei ghaṭī-kṣaṇa-pala diyā mālya-candana, nānā ratna-ābharaṇa, alaṅkṛta karimu sakala
“If by chance such a moment comes when I can once again see Kṛṣṇa, then I shall worship those seconds, moments and hours with flower garlands and pulp of sandalwood and decorate them with all kinds of jewels and ornaments.”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.39

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kṣaṇe bāhya haila mana, āge dekhe dui jana, tāṅre puche, — āmi nā caitanya? svapna-prāya ki dekhinu, kibā āmi pralāpinu, tomarā kichu śuniyācha dainya?
[kshane baahya haila mana, aage dekhe dui jana, taanre puche, — aami naa chaitanya? svapna-praaya ki dekhinu, kibaa aami pralaapinu, tomaraa kichu shuniyaacha dainya?]
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kṣaṇe bāhya haila mana, āge dekhe dui jana, tāṅre puche, — āmi nā caitanya? svapna-prāya ki dekhinu, kibā āmi pralāpinu, tomarā kichu śuniyācha dainya?
In an instant, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu regained external consciousness and saw two persons before Him. Questioning them, He asked, “Am I conscious? What dreams have I been seeing? What craziness have I spoken? Have you heard some expressions of humility?”

When Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu thus spoke in ecstasy, He saw two persons before Him. One was His secretary, Svarūpa Dāmodara, and the other was Rāya Rāmānanda. Coming to His external consciousness, He saw them both present, and although He was still talking in the ecstasy of Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī, He immediately began to question whether He was the same Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.40

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śuna mora prāṇera bāndhava nāhi kṛṣṇa-prema-dhana,—daridra mora jīvana, dehendriya vṛthā mora saba
[shuna mora praanera baandhava naahi krishna-prema-dhana,—daridra mora jeevana, dehendriya vrithaa mora saba]
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śuna mora prāṇera bāndhava nāhi kṛṣṇa-prema-dhana,—daridra mora jīvana, dehendriya vṛthā mora saba
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu continued, “My dear friends, you are all My life and soul; therefore I tell you that I possess no wealth of love for Kṛṣṇa. Consequently My life is poverty-stricken. My limbs and senses are useless.”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.41

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punaḥ kahe, — hāya hāya, śuna, svarūpa-rāmarāya, ei mora hṛdaya-niścaya śuni karaha vicāra, haya, naya — kaha sāra, eta bali’ śloka uccāraya
[punah kahe, — haaya haaya, shuna, svaroopa-raamaraaya, ei mora hridaya-nishchaya shuni karaha vichaara, haya, naya — kaha saara, eta bali’ shloka uchchaaraya]
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punaḥ kahe, — hāya hāya, śuna, svarūpa-rāmarāya, ei mora hṛdaya-niścaya śuni karaha vicāra, haya, naya — kaha sāra, eta bali’ śloka uccāraya
Again He addressed Svarūpa Dāmodara and Rāya Rāmānanda, speaking despondently: “Alas! My friends, you can now know the certainty within My heart, and after knowing My heart you should judge whether I am correct or not. You can speak of this properly.” Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu then began to chant another verse.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.42

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ka-i-avarahi-aṁ pemmaṁ ṇa hi hoi māṇuse loe ja-i hoi kassa virahe hontammi ko jīa-i
[ka-i-avarahi-am pemmam na hi hoi maanuse loe ja-i hoi kassa virahe hontammi ko jeea-i]
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ka-i-avarahi-aṁ pemmaṁ ṇa hi hoi māṇuse loe ja-i hoi kassa virahe hontammi ko jīa-i
“ ‘Love of Godhead, devoid of cheating propensities, is not possible within this material world. If there is such a love, there cannot be separation, for if there is separation, how can one live?’

This is a verse in a common language called prākṛta, and the exact Sanskrit transformation is kaitava-rahitaṁ premā na hi bhavati mānuṣe loke/ yadi bhavati kasya viraho virahe saty api ko jīvati.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.43

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akaitava kṛṣṇa-prema, yena jāmbūnada-hema, sei premā nṛloke nā haya yadi haya tāra yoga, nā haya tabe viyoga, viyoga haile keha nā jīyaya
[akaitava krishna-prema, yena jaamboonada-hema, sei premaa nriloke naa haya yadi haya taara yoga, naa haya tabe viyoga, viyoga haile keha naa jeeyaya]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
akaitava kṛṣṇa-prema, yena jāmbūnada-hema, sei premā nṛloke nā haya yadi haya tāra yoga, nā haya tabe viyoga, viyoga haile keha nā jīyaya
“Pure love for Kṛṣṇa, just like gold from the Jāmbū River, does not exist in human society. If it existed, there could not be separation. If separation were there, one could not live.”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.44

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eta kahi’ śacī-suta, śloka paḍe adbhuta, śune duṅhe eka-mana hañā āpana-hṛdaya-kāja, kahite vāsiye lāja, tabu kahi lāja-bīja khāñā
[eta kahi’ shachee-suta, shloka pade adbhuta, shune dunhe eka-mana hanaa aapana-hridaya-kaaja, kahite vaasiye laaja, tabu kahi laaja-beeja khaanaa]
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eta kahi’ śacī-suta, śloka paḍe adbhuta, śune duṅhe eka-mana hañā āpana-hṛdaya-kāja, kahite vāsiye lāja, tabu kahi lāja-bīja khāñā
Thus speaking, the son of Śrīmatī Śacīmātā recited another wonderful verse, and Rāmānanda Rāya and Svarūpa Dāmodara heard this verse with rapt attention. Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu said, “I feel shameful to disclose the activities of My heart. Nonetheless, I shall be done with all formalities and speak from the heart. Please hear.”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.45

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na prema-gandho ’sti darāpi me harau krandāmi saubhāgya-bharaṁ prakāśitum vaṁśī-vilāsy-ānana-lokanaṁ vinā bibharmi yat prāṇa-pataṅgakān vṛthā
[na prema-gandho ’sti daraapi me harau krandaami saubhaagya-bharam prakaashitum vamshee-vilaasy-aanana-lokanam vinaa bibharmi yat praana-patangakaan vrithaa]
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na prema-gandho ’sti darāpi me harau krandāmi saubhāgya-bharaṁ prakāśitum vaṁśī-vilāsy-ānana-lokanaṁ vinā bibharmi yat prāṇa-pataṅgakān vṛthā
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu continued, “ ‘My dear friends, I have not the slightest tinge of love of Godhead within My heart. When you see Me crying in separation, I am just falsely exhibiting a demonstration of My great fortune. Indeed, not seeing the beautiful face of Kṛṣṇa playing His flute, I continue to live My life like an insect, without purpose.’
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.46

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dūre śuddha-prema-gandha, kapaṭa premera bandha, seha mora nāhi kṛṣṇa-pāya tabe ye kari krandana, sva-saubhāgya prakhyāpana, kari, ihā jāniha niścaya
[doore shuddha-prema-gandha, kapata premera bandha, seha mora naahi krishna-paaya tabe ye kari krandana, sva-saubhaagya prakhyaapana, kari, ihaa jaaniha nishchaya]
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dūre śuddha-prema-gandha, kapaṭa premera bandha, seha mora nāhi kṛṣṇa-pāya tabe ye kari krandana, sva-saubhāgya prakhyāpana, kari, ihā jāniha niścaya
“Actually, My love for Kṛṣṇa is far, far away. Whatever I do is actually an exhibition of pseudo love of Godhead. When you see Me cry, I am simply falsely demonstrating My great fortune. Please try to understand this beyond a doubt.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.47

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yāte vaṁśī-dhvani-sukha, nā dekhi’ se cāṅda mukha, yadyapi nāhika ‘ālambana’ nija-dehe kari prīti, kevala kāmera rīti, prāṇa-kīṭera kariye dhāraṇa
[yaate vamshee-dhvani-sukha, naa dekhi’ se chaanda mukha, yadyapi naahika ‘aalambana’ nija-dehe kari preeti, kevala kaamera reeti, praana-keetera kariye dhaarana]
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yāte vaṁśī-dhvani-sukha, nā dekhi’ se cāṅda mukha, yadyapi nāhika ‘ālambana’ nija-dehe kari prīti, kevala kāmera rīti, prāṇa-kīṭera kariye dhāraṇa
“Even though I do not see the moonlike face of Kṛṣṇa as He plays on His flute, and although there is no possibility of My meeting Him, still I take care of My own body. That is the way of lust. In this way, I maintain My flylike life.

In this connection, Śrīla Bhaktisiddhānta Sarasvatī Ṭhākura says that the lovable Supreme Lord is the supreme shelter. The Lord is the supreme subject, and the devotees are the object. The coming together of a subject and object is called ālambana. The object hears, and the subject plays the flute. That the object cannot see the moonlike face of Kṛṣṇa and has no eagerness to see Him is the sign of being without ālambana. Externally imagining such a thing simply satisfies one’s lusty desires, and thus one lives without purpose.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.48

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kṛṣṇa-premā sunirmala, yena śuddha-gaṅgā-jala, sei premā — amṛtera sindhu nirmala se anurāge, nā lukāya anya dāge, śukla-vastre yaiche masī-bindu
[krishna-premaa sunirmala, yena shuddha-gangaa-jala, sei premaa — amritera sindhu nirmala se anuraage, naa lukaaya anya daage, shukla-vastre yaiche masee-bindu]
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kṛṣṇa-premā sunirmala, yena śuddha-gaṅgā-jala, sei premā — amṛtera sindhu nirmala se anurāge, nā lukāya anya dāge, śukla-vastre yaiche masī-bindu
“Love for Lord Kṛṣṇa is very pure, just like the waters of the Ganges. That love is an ocean of nectar. That pure attachment to Kṛṣṇa does not conceal any spot, which would appear just like a spot of ink on a white cloth.

Unalloyed love of Kṛṣṇa is just like a big sheet of white cloth. Absence of attachment is compared to a black spot on that white cloth. Just as the black spot is prominent, so the absence of love of Godhead is prominent on the platform of pure love of Godhead.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.49

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śuddha-prema-sukha-sindhu, pāi tāra eka bindu, sei bindu jagat ḍubāya kahibāra yogya naya, tathāpi bāule kaya, kahile vā kebā pātiyāya
[shuddha-prema-sukha-sindhu, paai taara eka bindu, sei bindu jagat dubaaya kahibaara yogya naya, tathaapi baaule kaya, kahile vaa kebaa paatiyaaya]
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śuddha-prema-sukha-sindhu, pāi tāra eka bindu, sei bindu jagat ḍubāya kahibāra yogya naya, tathāpi bāule kaya, kahile vā kebā pātiyāya
“Unalloyed love of Kṛṣṇa is like an ocean of happiness. If someone gets one drop of it, the whole world can drown in that drop. It is not befitting to express such love of Godhead, yet a madman must speak. But even though he speaks, no one believes him.”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.50

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ei mata dine dine, svarūpa-rāmānanda-sane, nija-bhāva karena vidita bāhye viṣa-jvālā haya, bhitare ānanda-maya, kṛṣṇa-premāra adbhuta carita
[ei mata dine dine, svaroopa-raamaananda-sane, nija-bhaava karena vidita baahye visha-jvaalaa haya, bhitare aananda-maya, krishna-premaara adbhuta charita]
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ei mata dine dine, svarūpa-rāmānanda-sane, nija-bhāva karena vidita bāhye viṣa-jvālā haya, bhitare ānanda-maya, kṛṣṇa-premāra adbhuta carita
In this way, Lord Caitanya used to revel in ecstasy day after day and exhibit these ecstasies before Svarūpa and Rāmānanda Rāya. Externally there appeared severe tribulation, as if He were suffering from poisonous effects, but internally He was experiencing bliss. This is characteristic of transcendental love of Kṛṣṇa.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.51

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ei premā-āsvādana, tapta-ikṣu-carvaṇa, mukha jvale, nā yāya tyajana sei premā yāṅra mane, tāra vikrama sei jāne, viṣāmṛte ekatra milana
[ei premaa-aasvaadana, tapta-ikshu-charvana, mukha jvale, naa yaaya tyajana sei premaa yaanra mane, taara vikrama sei jaane, vishaamrite ekatra milana]
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ei premā-āsvādana, tapta-ikṣu-carvaṇa, mukha jvale, nā yāya tyajana sei premā yāṅra mane, tāra vikrama sei jāne, viṣāmṛte ekatra milana
If one tastes such love of Godhead, he can compare it to hot sugarcane. When one chews hot sugarcane, his mouth burns, yet he cannot give it up. Similarly, if one has but a little love of Godhead, he can perceive its powerful effects. It can only be compared to poison and nectar mixed together.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.52

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pīḍābhir nava-kāla-kūṭa-kaṭutā-garvasya nirvāsano nisyandena mudāṁ sudhā-madhurimāhaṅkāra-saṅkocanaḥ premā sundari nanda-nandana-paro jāgarti yasyāntare jñāyante sphuṭam asya vakra-madhurās tenaiva vikrāntayaḥ
[peedaabhir nava-kaala-koota-katutaa-garvasya nirvaasano nisyandena mudaam sudhaa-madhurimaahankaara-sankochanah premaa sundari nanda-nandana-paro jaagarti yasyaantare jnaayante sphutam asya vakra-madhuraas tenaiva vikraantayah]
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pīḍābhir nava-kāla-kūṭa-kaṭutā-garvasya nirvāsano nisyandena mudāṁ sudhā-madhurimāhaṅkāra-saṅkocanaḥ premā sundari nanda-nandana-paro jāgarti yasyāntare jñāyante sphuṭam asya vakra-madhurās tenaiva vikrāntayaḥ
Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu spoke, “ ‘My dear beautiful friend, if one develops love of Godhead, love of Kṛṣṇa, the son of Nanda Mahārāja, all the bitter and sweet influences of this love will manifest in one’s heart. Such love of Godhead acts in two ways. The poisonous effects of love of Godhead defeat the severe and fresh poison of the serpent. Yet there is simultaneously transcendental bliss, which pours down and defeats the pride of nectar and diminishes its value. In other words, love of Kṛṣṇa is so powerful that it simultaneously defeats the poisonous effects of a snake, as well as the happiness derived from pouring nectar on one’s head. It is perceived as doubly effective, simultaneously poisonous and nectarean.’ ”

This verse is spoken by Paurṇamāsī to Nāndīmukhī in the Vidagdha-mādhava (2.18) of Śrīla Rūpa Gosvāmī.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.53

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ye kāle dekhe jagannātha- śrīrāma-subhadrā-sātha, tabe jāne — āilāma kurukṣetra saphala haila jīvana, dekhiluṅ padma-locana, juḍāila tanu-mana-netra
[ye kaale dekhe jagannaatha- shreeraama-subhadraa-saatha, tabe jaane — aailaama kurukshetra saphala haila jeevana, dekhilun padma-lochana, judaaila tanu-mana-netra]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
ye kāle dekhe jagannātha- śrīrāma-subhadrā-sātha, tabe jāne — āilāma kurukṣetra saphala haila jīvana, dekhiluṅ padma-locana, juḍāila tanu-mana-netra
When Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu would see Jagannātha along with Balarāma and Subhadrā, He would immediately think that He had reached Kurukṣetra, where all of them had come. He would think that His life was successful because He had seen the lotus-eyed one, whom, if seen, pacifies the body, mind and eyes.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.54

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garuḍera sannidhāne, rahi’ kare daraśane, se ānandera ki kahiba ba’le garuḍa-stambhera tale, āche eka nimna khāle, se khāla bharila aśru-jale
[garudera sannidhaane, rahi’ kare darashane, se aanandera ki kahiba ba’le garuda-stambhera tale, aache eka nimna khaale, se khaala bharila ashru-jale]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
garuḍera sannidhāne, rahi’ kare daraśane, se ānandera ki kahiba ba’le garuḍa-stambhera tale, āche eka nimna khāle, se khāla bharila aśru-jale
Staying near the Garuḍa-stambha, the Lord would look upon Lord Jagannātha. What can be said about the strength of that love? On the ground beneath the column of the Garuḍa-stambha was a deep ditch, and that ditch was filled with the water of His tears.

In front of the temple of Jagannātha is a column on which the statue of Garuḍa is situated. It is called the Garuḍa-stambha. At the base of that column is a ditch, and that ditch was filled with the tears of the Lord.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.55

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tāhāṅ haite ghare āsi’, māṭīra upare vasi’, nakhe kare pṛthivī likhana hā-hā kāhāṅ vṛndāvana, kāhāṅ gopendra-nandana, kāhāṅ sei vaṁśī-vadana
[taahaan haite ghare aasi’, maateera upare vasi’, nakhe kare prithivee likhana haa-haa kaahaan vrindaavana, kaahaan gopendra-nandana, kaahaan sei vamshee-vadana]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
tāhāṅ haite ghare āsi’, māṭīra upare vasi’, nakhe kare pṛthivī likhana hā-hā kāhāṅ vṛndāvana, kāhāṅ gopendra-nandana, kāhāṅ sei vaṁśī-vadana
When coming from the Jagannātha temple to return to His house, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu used to sit on the ground and mark it with His nails. At such times He would be greatly morose and would cry, “Alas, where is Vṛndāvana? Where is Kṛṣṇa, the son of the King of the cowherd men? Where is that person who plays the flute?”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.56

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kāhāṅ se tri-bhaṅga-ṭhāma, kāhāṅ sei veṇu-gāna, kāhāṅ sei yamunā-pulina kāhāṅ se rāsa-vilāsa, kāhāṅ nṛtya-gīta-hāsa, kāhāṅ prabhu madana-mohana
[kaahaan se tri-bhanga-thaama, kaahaan sei venu-gaana, kaahaan sei yamunaa-pulina kaahaan se raasa-vilaasa, kaahaan nritya-geeta-haasa, kaahaan prabhu madana-mohana]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
kāhāṅ se tri-bhaṅga-ṭhāma, kāhāṅ sei veṇu-gāna, kāhāṅ sei yamunā-pulina kāhāṅ se rāsa-vilāsa, kāhāṅ nṛtya-gīta-hāsa, kāhāṅ prabhu madana-mohana
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu used to lament by saying, “Where is Śrī Kṛṣṇa, whose form is curved in three places? Where is the sweet song of His flute, and where is the bank of the Yamunā? Where is the rāsa dance? Where is that dancing, singing and laughing? Where is My Lord, Madana-mohana, the enchanter of Cupid?”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.57

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uṭhila nānā bhāvāvega, mane haila udvega, kṣaṇa-mātra nāre goṅāite prabala virahānale, dhairya haila ṭalamale, nānā śloka lāgilā paḍite
[uthila naanaa bhaavaavega, mane haila udvega, kshana-maatra naare gonaaite prabala virahaanale, dhairya haila talamale, naanaa shloka laagilaa padite]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
uṭhila nānā bhāvāvega, mane haila udvega, kṣaṇa-mātra nāre goṅāite prabala virahānale, dhairya haila ṭalamale, nānā śloka lāgilā paḍite
In this way various ecstatic emotions evolved, and the mind of Caitanya Mahāprabhu filled with anxiety. He could not escape even for a moment. In this way, because of fierce feelings of separation, His patience began to totter, and He began to recite various verses.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.58

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amūny adhanyāni dināntarāṇi hare tvad-ālokanam antareṇa anātha-bandho karuṇaika-sindho hā hanta hā hanta kathaṁ nayāmi
[amoony adhanyaani dinaantaraani hare tvad-aalokanam antarena anaatha-bandho karunaika-sindho haa hanta haa hanta katham nayaami]
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amūny adhanyāni dināntarāṇi hare tvad-ālokanam antareṇa anātha-bandho karuṇaika-sindho hā hanta hā hanta kathaṁ nayāmi
“ ‘O My Lord, O Supreme Personality of Godhead, O friend of the helpless! You are the only ocean of mercy! Because I have not met You, My inauspicious days and nights have become unbearable. I do not know how I shall pass the time.’

This is a verse from the Kṛṣṇa-karṇāmṛta (41), by Bilvamaṅgala Ṭhākura.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.59

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tomāra darśana-vine, adhanya e rātri-dine, ei kāla nā yāya kāṭana tumi anāthera bandhu, apāra karuṇā-sindhu, kṛpā kari’ deha daraśana
[tomaara darshana-vine, adhanya e raatri-dine, ei kaala naa yaaya kaatana tumi anaathera bandhu, apaara karunaa-sindhu, kripaa kari’ deha darashana]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
tomāra darśana-vine, adhanya e rātri-dine, ei kāla nā yāya kāṭana tumi anāthera bandhu, apāra karuṇā-sindhu, kṛpā kari’ deha daraśana
“All these inauspicious days and nights are not passing, for I have not met You. It is difficult to know how to pass all this time. But You are the friend of the helpless and an ocean of mercy. Kindly give Me Your audience, for I am in a precarious position.”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.60

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uṭhila bhāva-cāpala, mana ha-ila cañcala, bhāvera gati bujhana nā yāya adarśane poḍe mana, kemane pāba daraśana, kṛṣṇa-ṭhāñi puchena upāya
[uthila bhaava-chaapala, mana ha-ila chanchala, bhaavera gati bujhana naa yaaya adarshane pode mana, kemane paaba darashana, krishna-thaani puchena upaaya]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
uṭhila bhāva-cāpala, mana ha-ila cañcala, bhāvera gati bujhana nā yāya adarśane poḍe mana, kemane pāba daraśana, kṛṣṇa-ṭhāñi puchena upāya
In this way, the Lord’s restlessness was awakened by ecstatic feelings, and His mind became agitated. No one could understand what course such ecstasy would take. Because Lord Caitanya could not meet the Supreme Personality of Godhead, Kṛṣṇa, His mind burned. He began to ask Kṛṣṇa about the means by which He could reach Him.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.61

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tvac-chaiśavaṁ tri-bhuvanādbhutam ity avehi mac-cāpalaṁ ca tava vā mama vādhigamyam tat kiṁ karomi viralaṁ muralī-vilāsi mugdhaṁ mukhāmbujam udīkṣitum īkṣaṇābhyām
[tvach-chaishavam tri-bhuvanaadbhutam ity avehi mach-chaapalam cha tava vaa mama vaadhigamyam tat kim karomi viralam muralee-vilaasi mugdham mukhaambujam udeekshitum eekshanaabhyaam]
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tvac-chaiśavaṁ tri-bhuvanādbhutam ity avehi mac-cāpalaṁ ca tava vā mama vādhigamyam tat kiṁ karomi viralaṁ muralī-vilāsi mugdhaṁ mukhāmbujam udīkṣitum īkṣaṇābhyām
“ ‘O Kṛṣṇa, O flute-player, the sweetness of Your early age is wonderful within these three worlds. You know My unsteadiness, and I know Yours. No one else knows about this. I want to see Your beautiful attractive face somewhere in a solitary place, but how can this be accomplished?’

This is another quote from the Kṛṣṇa-karṇāmṛta (32) of Bilvamaṅgala Ṭhākura.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.62

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tomāra mādhurī-bala, tāte mora cāpala, ei dui, tumi āmi jāni kāhāṅ karoṅ kāhāṅ yāṅ, kāhāṅ gele tomā pāṅ, tāhā more kaha ta’ āpani
[tomaara maadhuree-bala, taate mora chaapala, ei dui, tumi aami jaani kaahaan karon kaahaan yaan, kaahaan gele tomaa paan, taahaa more kaha ta’ aapani]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
tomāra mādhurī-bala, tāte mora cāpala, ei dui, tumi āmi jāni kāhāṅ karoṅ kāhāṅ yāṅ, kāhāṅ gele tomā pāṅ, tāhā more kaha ta’ āpani
“My dear Kṛṣṇa, only You and I know the strength of Your beautiful features and, because of them, My unsteadiness. Now, this is My position; I do not know what to do or where to go. Where can I find You? I am asking You to give directions.”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.63

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nānā-bhāvera prābalya, haila sandhi-śābalya, bhāve-bhāve haila mahā-raṇa autsukya, cāpalya, dainya, roṣāmarṣa ādi sainya, premonmāda — sabāra kāraṇa
[naanaa-bhaavera praabalya, haila sandhi-shaabalya, bhaave-bhaave haila mahaa-rana autsukya, chaapalya, dainya, roshaamarsha aadi sainya, premonmaada — sabaara kaarana]
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nānā-bhāvera prābalya, haila sandhi-śābalya, bhāve-bhāve haila mahā-raṇa autsukya, cāpalya, dainya, roṣāmarṣa ādi sainya, premonmāda — sabāra kāraṇa
Because of the various kinds of ecstasy, contradictory states of mind occurred, and this resulted in a great fight between different types of ecstasy. Anxiety, impotence, humility, anger and impatience were all like soldiers fighting, and the madness of love of Godhead was the cause.

In the Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu it is stated that when similar ecstasies from separate causes meet, they are called svarūpa-sandhi. When opposing elements meet, whether they arise from a common cause or different causes, their conjunction is called bhinna-rūpasandhi, the meeting of contradictory ecstasies. The simultaneous joining of different ecstasies — fear and happiness, regret and happiness — is called meeting (sandhi). The word śābalya refers to different types of ecstatic symptoms combined together, like pride, despondency, humility, remembrance, doubt, impatience caused by insult, fear, disappointment, patience and eagerness. The friction that occurs when these combine is called śābalya. Similarly, when the desire to see the object is very prominent, or when one is unable to tolerate any delay in seeing the desired object, the incapability is called autsukya, or eagerness. If such eagerness is present, one’s mouth dries up and one becomes restless. One also becomes full of anxiety, and hard breathing and impatience are observed. Similarly, the lightness of heart caused by strong attachment and strong agitation of the mind is called impotence (cāpalya). Failure of judgment, misuse of words, and obstinate activities devoid of anxiety are observed. Similarly, when one becomes too angry at the other party, offensive and abominable speech occurs, and this anger is called roṣa. When one becomes impatient due to being scolded or insulted, the resultant state of mind is called amarṣa. In this state of mind, one perspires, acquires a headache, fades in bodily color and experiences anxiety and an urge to search out the remedy. The bearing of a grudge, aversion and chastisement are all visible symptoms.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.64

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matta-gaja bhāva-gaṇa, prabhura deha — ikṣu-vana, gaja-yuddhe vanera dalana prabhura haila divyonmāda, tanu-manera avasāda, bhāvāveśe kare sambodhana
[matta-gaja bhaava-gana, prabhura deha — ikshu-vana, gaja-yuddhe vanera dalana prabhura haila divyonmaada, tanu-manera avasaada, bhaavaaveshe kare sambodhana]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
matta-gaja bhāva-gaṇa, prabhura deha — ikṣu-vana, gaja-yuddhe vanera dalana prabhura haila divyonmāda, tanu-manera avasāda, bhāvāveśe kare sambodhana
The body of the Lord was just like a field of sugarcane into which the mad elephants of ecstasy entered. There was a fight amongst the elephants, and in the process the entire field of sugarcane was destroyed. Thus transcendental madness was awakened in the body of the Lord, and He experienced despondency in mind and body. In this ecstatic condition, He began to speak as follows.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.65

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he deva he dayita he bhuvanaika-bandho he kṛṣṇa he capala he karuṇaika-sindho he nātha he ramaṇa he nayanābhirāma hā hā kadā nu bhavitāsi padaṁ dṛśor me
[he deva he dayita he bhuvanaika-bandho he krishna he chapala he karunaika-sindho he naatha he ramana he nayanaabhiraama haa haa kadaa nu bhavitaasi padam drishor me]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
he deva he dayita he bhuvanaika-bandho he kṛṣṇa he capala he karuṇaika-sindho he nātha he ramaṇa he nayanābhirāma hā hā kadā nu bhavitāsi padaṁ dṛśor me
“ ‘O My Lord! O dearest one! O only friend of the universe! O Kṛṣṇa, O restless one, O only ocean of mercy! O My Lord, O My enjoyer, O beloved to My eyes! Alas, when will You again be visible to Me?’ ”

This is text 40 of the Kṛṣṇa-karṇāmṛta.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.66

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unmādera lakṣaṇa, karāya kṛṣṇa-sphuraṇa, bhāvāveśe uṭhe praṇaya māna solluṇṭha-vacana-rīti, māna, garva, vyāja-stuti, kabhu nindā, kabhu vā sammāna
[unmaadera lakshana, karaaya krishna-sphurana, bhaavaaveshe uthe pranaya maana solluntha-vachana-reeti, maana, garva, vyaaja-stuti, kabhu nindaa, kabhu vaa sammaana]
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unmādera lakṣaṇa, karāya kṛṣṇa-sphuraṇa, bhāvāveśe uṭhe praṇaya māna solluṇṭha-vacana-rīti, māna, garva, vyāja-stuti, kabhu nindā, kabhu vā sammāna
The symptoms of madness served as an impetus for remembering Kṛṣṇa. The mood of ecstasy awoke love, disdain, defamation by words, pride, honor and indirect prayer. Thus Śrī Kṛṣṇa was sometimes blasphemed and sometimes honored.

The word unmāda is explained in the Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu as extreme joy, misfortune and bewilderment in the heart due to separation. Symptoms of unmāda are laughing like a madman, dancing, singing, performing ineffectual activities, talking nonsense, running, shouting and sometimes working in contradictory ways. The word praṇaya is explained thus: When there is a possibility of receiving direct honor but it is avoided, that love is called praṇaya. Śrīla Rūpa Gosvāmī, in his Ujjvala-nīlamaṇi, explains the word māna thus: When the lover feels novel sweetness by exchanging hearty loving words but wishes to hide his feelings by crooked means, māna is experienced.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.67

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tumi deva — krīḍā-rata, bhuvanera nārī yata, tāhe kara abhīṣṭa krīḍana tumi mora dayita, mote vaise tomāra cita, mora bhāgye kaile āgamana
[tumi deva — kreedaa-rata, bhuvanera naaree yata, taahe kara abheeshta kreedana tumi mora dayita, mote vaise tomaara chita, mora bhaagye kaile aagamana]
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tumi deva — krīḍā-rata, bhuvanera nārī yata, tāhe kara abhīṣṭa krīḍana tumi mora dayita, mote vaise tomāra cita, mora bhāgye kaile āgamana
[In the attitude of Rādhārāṇī, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu addressed Kṛṣṇa:] “My dear Lord, You are engaged in Your pastimes, and You utilize all the women in the universe according to Your desire. You are so kind to Me. Please divert Your attention to Me, for by fortune You have appeared before Me.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.68

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bhuvanera nārī-gaṇa, sabā’ kara ākarṣaṇa, tāhāṅ kara saba samādhāna tumi kṛṣṇa — citta-hara, aiche kona pāmara, tomāre vā kebā kare māna
[bhuvanera naaree-gana, sabaa’ kara aakarshana, taahaan kara saba samaadhaana tumi krishna — chitta-hara, aiche kona paamara, tomaare vaa kebaa kare maana]
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bhuvanera nārī-gaṇa, sabā’ kara ākarṣaṇa, tāhāṅ kara saba samādhāna tumi kṛṣṇa — citta-hara, aiche kona pāmara, tomāre vā kebā kare māna
“My dear Lord, You attract all the women of the universe, and You make adjustments for all of them when they appear. You are Lord Kṛṣṇa, and You can enchant everyone, but on the whole, You are nothing but a debauchee. Who can honor You?
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.69

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tomāra capala-mati, ekatra nā haya sthiti, tā’te tomāra nāhi kichu doṣa tumi ta’ karuṇā-sindhu, āmāra parāṇa-bandhu, tomāya nāhi mora kabhu roṣa
[tomaara chapala-mati, ekatra naa haya sthiti, taa’te tomaara naahi kichu dosha tumi ta’ karunaa-sindhu, aamaara paraana-bandhu, tomaaya naahi mora kabhu rosha]
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tomāra capala-mati, ekatra nā haya sthiti, tā’te tomāra nāhi kichu doṣa tumi ta’ karuṇā-sindhu, āmāra parāṇa-bandhu, tomāya nāhi mora kabhu roṣa
“My dear Kṛṣṇa, Your mind is always restless. You cannot remain in one place, but You are not at fault for this. You are actually the ocean of mercy, the friend of My heart. Therefore I have no reason to be angry with You.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.70

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tumi nātha — vraja-prāṇa, vrajera kara paritrāṇa, bahu kārye nāhi avakāśa tumi āmāra ramaṇa, sukha dite āgamana, e tomāra vaidagdhya-vilāsa
[tumi naatha — vraja-praana, vrajera kara paritraana, bahu kaarye naahi avakaasha tumi aamaara ramana, sukha dite aagamana, e tomaara vaidagdhya-vilaasa]
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tumi nātha — vraja-prāṇa, vrajera kara paritrāṇa, bahu kārye nāhi avakāśa tumi āmāra ramaṇa, sukha dite āgamana, e tomāra vaidagdhya-vilāsa
“My dear Lord, You are the master and the life and soul of Vṛndāvana. Kindly arrange for the deliverance of Vṛndāvana. We have no leisure hours away from our many activities. Actually, You are My enjoyer. You have appeared just to give Me happiness, and this is one of Your expert activities.

The word vaidagdhya means that one is very expert, learned, humorous, cunning, beautiful and skilled in manifesting caricatures.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.71

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mora vākya nindā māni, kṛṣṇa chāḍi’ gelā jāni, śuna, mora e stuti-vacana nayanera abhirāma, tumi mora dhana-prāṇa, hā-hā punaḥ deha daraśana
[mora vaakya nindaa maani, krishna chaadi’ gelaa jaani, shuna, mora e stuti-vachana nayanera abhiraama, tumi mora dhana-praana, haa-haa punah deha darashana]
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mora vākya nindā māni, kṛṣṇa chāḍi’ gelā jāni, śuna, mora e stuti-vacana nayanera abhirāma, tumi mora dhana-prāṇa, hā-hā punaḥ deha daraśana
“Taking My words as defamation, Lord Kṛṣṇa has left Me. I know that He is gone, but kindly hear My prayers in praise: ‘You are the satisfaction of My eyes. You are My wealth and My life. Alas, please give Me your audience once again.’ ”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.72

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stambha, kampa, prasveda, vaivarṇya, aśru, svara-bheda, deha haila pulake vyāpita hāse, kānde, nāce, gāya, uṭhi’ iti uti dhāya, kṣaṇe bhūme paḍiyā mūrcchita
[stambha, kampa, prasveda, vaivarnya, ashru, svara-bheda, deha haila pulake vyaapita haase, kaande, naache, gaaya, uthi’ iti uti dhaaya, kshane bhoome padiyaa moorchchita]
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stambha, kampa, prasveda, vaivarṇya, aśru, svara-bheda, deha haila pulake vyāpita hāse, kānde, nāce, gāya, uṭhi’ iti uti dhāya, kṣaṇe bhūme paḍiyā mūrcchita
There were different transformations of the body of Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu: being stunned, trembling, perspiring, fading away of color, weeping, and choking of the voice. In this way His whole body was pervaded by transcendental joy. As a result, sometimes Caitanya Mahāprabhu would laugh, sometimes cry, sometimes dance and sometimes sing. Sometimes He would get up and run here and there, and sometimes fall on the ground and lose consciousness.

In the Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu, eight kinds of transcendental changes taking place in the body are described. Stambha, being stunned, refers to the mind’s becoming transcendentally absorbed. In that state, the peaceful mind is placed on the life air, and different bodily transformations are manifest. These symptoms are visible in the body of an advanced devotee. When life becomes almost inactive, it is called “stunned.” The emotions resulting from this condition are joy, fear, astonishment, moroseness and anger. In this condition, the power of speech is lost and there is no movement in the hands and legs. Otherwise, being stunned is a mental condition. Many other symptoms are visible on the entire body in the beginning. These are very subtle, but gradually they become very apparent. When one cannot speak, naturally one’s active senses are arrested, and the knowledge-acquiring senses are rendered inoperative. Kampa, trembling of the body, is mentioned in the Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu as a result of a special kind of fear, anger and joy. This is called vepathu, or kampa. When the body begins to perspire because of joy, fear and anger combined, this is called sveda. Vaivarṇya is described as a change in the bodily color. It is caused by a combination of moroseness, anger and fear. When these emotions are experienced, the complexion turns pale and the body becomes lean and thin. Aśru is explained in the Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu as a combination of joy, anger and moroseness that causes water to flow from the eyes without effort. When there is joy and there are tears in the eyes, the temperature of the tears is cold, but when there is anger, the tears are hot. In both cases, the eyes are restless, the eyeballs are red and there is itching. These are all symptoms of aśru. When there is a combination of moroseness, astonishment, anger, joy and fear, there is a choking in the voice. This choking is called gadgada. Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu refers to gadgada-ruddhayā girā, or “a faltering voice.” In the Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu, pulaka is described as joy, encouragement and fear. When these combine, the hairs on the body stand on end, and this bodily state is called pulaka.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.73

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mūrcchāya haila sākṣātkāra, uṭhi’ kare huhuṅkāra, kahe — ei āilā mahāśaya kṛṣṇera mādhurī-guṇe, nānā bhrama haya mane, śloka paḍi’ karaye niścaya
[moorchchaaya haila saakshaatkaara, uthi’ kare huhunkaara, kahe — ei aailaa mahaashaya krishnera maadhuree-gune, naanaa bhrama haya mane, shloka padi’ karaye nishchaya]
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mūrcchāya haila sākṣātkāra, uṭhi’ kare huhuṅkāra, kahe — ei āilā mahāśaya kṛṣṇera mādhurī-guṇe, nānā bhrama haya mane, śloka paḍi’ karaye niścaya
When Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu was thus unconscious, He happened to meet the Supreme Personality of Godhead. Consequently He got up and immediately made a tumultuous sound, very loudly declaring, “Now Kṛṣṇa, the great personality, is present.” In this way, because of Kṛṣṇa’s sweet qualities, Caitanya Mahāprabhu made different types of mistakes in His mind. Thus by reciting the following verse, He ascertained the presence of Lord Kṛṣṇa.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.74

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māraḥ svayaṁ nu madhura-dyuti-maṇḍalaṁ nu mādhuryam eva nu mano-nayanāmṛtaṁ nu veṇī-mṛjo nu mama jīvita-vallabho nu kṛṣṇo ’yam abhyudayate mama locanāya
[maarah svayam nu madhura-dyuti-mandalam nu maadhuryam eva nu mano-nayanaamritam nu venee-mrijo nu mama jeevita-vallabho nu krishno ’yam abhyudayate mama lochanaaya]
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māraḥ svayaṁ nu madhura-dyuti-maṇḍalaṁ nu mādhuryam eva nu mano-nayanāmṛtaṁ nu veṇī-mṛjo nu mama jīvita-vallabho nu kṛṣṇo ’yam abhyudayate mama locanāya
In the attitude of Rādhārāṇī, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu addressed the gopīs: “ ‘My dear friends, where is that Kṛṣṇa, Cupid personified, who has the effulgence of a kadamba flower, who is sweetness itself, the nectar of My eyes and mind, He who loosens the hair of the gopīs, who is the supreme source of transcendental bliss and My life and soul? Has He come before My eyes again?’ ”

This is another verse from the Kṛṣṇa-karṇāmṛta (68).

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.75

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kibā ei sākṣāt kāma, dyuti-bimba mūrtimān, ki mādhurya svayaṁ mūrtimanta kibā mano-netrotsava, kibā prāṇa-vallabha, satya kṛṣṇa āilā netrānanda
[kibaa ei saakshaat kaama, dyuti-bimba moortimaan, ki maadhurya svayam moortimanta kibaa mano-netrotsava, kibaa praana-vallabha, satya krishna aailaa netraananda]
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kibā ei sākṣāt kāma, dyuti-bimba mūrtimān, ki mādhurya svayaṁ mūrtimanta kibā mano-netrotsava, kibā prāṇa-vallabha, satya kṛṣṇa āilā netrānanda
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu then began to talk like this: “Is Cupid personified present with the effulgence and reflection of the kadamba tree? Is He the same person, personified sweetness, who is the pleasure of My eyes and mind, who is My life and soul? Has Kṛṣṇa actually come before My eyes?”
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.76

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guru — nānā bhāva-gaṇa, śiṣya — prabhura tanu-mana, nānā rīte satata nācāya nirveda, viṣāda, dainya, cāpalya, harṣa, dhairya, manyu, ei nṛtye prabhura kāla yāya
[guru — naanaa bhaava-gana, shishya — prabhura tanu-mana, naanaa reete satata naachaaya nirveda, vishaada, dainya, chaapalya, harsha, dhairya, manyu, ei nritye prabhura kaala yaaya]
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guru — nānā bhāva-gaṇa, śiṣya — prabhura tanu-mana, nānā rīte satata nācāya nirveda, viṣāda, dainya, cāpalya, harṣa, dhairya, manyu, ei nṛtye prabhura kāla yāya
As the spiritual master chastises the disciple and teaches him the art of devotional service, so all the ecstatic symptoms of Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu — including despondency, moroseness, humility, restlessness, joy, endurance and anger — instructed His body and mind. In this way, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu passed His time.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.77

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caṇḍīdāsa, vidyāpati, rāyera nāṭaka-gīti, karṇāmṛta, śrī-gīta-govinda svarūpa-rāmānanda-sane, mahāprabhu rātri-dine, gāya, śune — parama ānanda
[chandeedaasa, vidyaapati, raayera naataka-geeti, karnaamrita, shree-geeta-govinda svaroopa-raamaananda-sane, mahaaprabhu raatri-dine, gaaya, shune — parama aananda]
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caṇḍīdāsa, vidyāpati, rāyera nāṭaka-gīti, karṇāmṛta, śrī-gīta-govinda svarūpa-rāmānanda-sane, mahāprabhu rātri-dine, gāya, śune — parama ānanda
He also passed His time reading the books and singing the songs of Caṇḍīdāsa and Vidyāpati, and listening to quotations from the Jagannātha-vallabha-nāṭaka, Kṛṣṇa-karṇāmṛta and Gīta-govinda. Thus in the association of Svarūpa Dāmodara and Rāya Rāmānanda, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu passed His days and nights chanting and hearing with great pleasure.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.78

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purīra vātsalya mukhya, rāmānandera śuddha-sakhya, govindādyera śuddha-dāsya-rasa gadādhara, jagadānanda, svarūpera mukhya rasānanda, ei cāri bhāve prabhu vaśa
[pureera vaatsalya mukhya, raamaanandera shuddha-sakhya, govindaadyera shuddha-daasya-rasa gadaadhara, jagadaananda, svaroopera mukhya rasaananda, ei chaari bhaave prabhu vasha]
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purīra vātsalya mukhya, rāmānandera śuddha-sakhya, govindādyera śuddha-dāsya-rasa gadādhara, jagadānanda, svarūpera mukhya rasānanda, ei cāri bhāve prabhu vaśa
Among His associates, Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu enjoyed paternal loving affection from Paramānanda Purī, friendly affection with Rāmānanda Rāya, unalloyed service from Govinda and others, and humors of conjugal love with Gadādhara, Jagadānanda and Svarūpa Dāmodara. Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu enjoyed all these four mellows, and thus He remained obliged to His devotees.

Paramānanda Purī is said to have been Uddhava in Vṛndāvana. His affections with Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu were on the platform of paternal love. This was because Paramānanda Purī happened to be the Godbrother of the spiritual master of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu. Similarly, Rāmānanda Rāya, who is considered an incarnation of Arjuna and by some an incarnation of Viśākhādevī, enjoyed unalloyed fraternal love with the Lord. Unalloyed personal service was enjoyed by Govinda and others. In the presence of His most confidential devotees like Gadādhara Paṇḍita, Jagadānanda and Svarūpa Dāmodara, Caitanya Mahāprabhu enjoyed the ecstatic conditions of Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī in Her conjugal relationship with Kṛṣṇa. Absorbed in these four transcendental mellows, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu resided in Jagannātha Purī, feeling very much obliged to His devotees.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.79

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līlāśuka — martya-jana, tāṅra haya bhāvodgama, īśvare se — ki ihā vismaya tāhe mukhya-rasāśraya, ha-iyāchena mahāśaya, tāte haya sarva-bhāvodaya
[leelaashuka — martya-jana, taanra haya bhaavodgama, eeshvare se — ki ihaa vismaya taahe mukhya-rasaashraya, ha-iyaachena mahaashaya, taate haya sarva-bhaavodaya]
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līlāśuka — martya-jana, tāṅra haya bhāvodgama, īśvare se — ki ihā vismaya tāhe mukhya-rasāśraya, ha-iyāchena mahāśaya, tāte haya sarva-bhāvodaya
Līlāśuka [Bilvamaṅgala Ṭhākura] was an ordinary human being, yet he developed many ecstatic symptoms in his body. What, then, is so astonishing about these symptoms’ being manifest in the body of the Supreme Personality of Godhead? In the ecstatic mood of conjugal love, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu was on the highest platform; therefore, all the exuberant ecstasies were naturally visible in His body.

Līlāśuka is Bilvamaṅgala Ṭhākura Gosvāmī. He was a South Indian, a brāhmaṇa, and his former name was Śilhaṇa Miśra. When he was a householder, he became attracted to a prostitute named Cintāmaṇi, but eventually he took her advice and became renounced. Thus he wrote a book named Śānti-śataka, and later, by the mercy of Lord Kṛṣṇa and the Vaiṣṇavas, he became a great devotee. Thus he became famous as Bilvamaṅgala Ṭhākura Gosvāmī. On that elevated platform he wrote a book named Kṛṣṇa-karṇāmṛta, which is very famous amongst Vaiṣṇavas. Since he exhibited so many ecstatic symptoms, people used to call him Līlāśuka.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.80

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pūrve vraja-vilāse, yei tina abhilāṣe, yatneha āsvāda nā haila śrī-rādhāra bhāva-sāra, āpane kari’ aṅgīkāra, sei tina vastu āsvādila
[poorve vraja-vilaase, yei tina abhilaashe, yatneha aasvaada naa haila shree-raadhaara bhaava-saara, aapane kari’ angeekaara, sei tina vastu aasvaadila]
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pūrve vraja-vilāse, yei tina abhilāṣe, yatneha āsvāda nā haila śrī-rādhāra bhāva-sāra, āpane kari’ aṅgīkāra, sei tina vastu āsvādila
During His previous pastimes in Vṛndāvana, Lord Kṛṣṇa desired to enjoy the three different types of ecstasy, but despite great endeavor, He could not taste them. Such ecstasies are the monopoly of Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī. Therefore, in order to taste them, Śrī Kṛṣṇa accepted the position of Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī in the form of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.81

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āpane kari’ āsvādane, śikhāila bhakta-gaṇe, prema-cintāmaṇira prabhu dhanī nāhi jāne sthānāsthāna, yāre tāre kaila dāna, mahāprabhu — dātā-śiromaṇi
[aapane kari’ aasvaadane, shikhaaila bhakta-gane, prema-chintaamanira prabhu dhanee naahi jaane sthaanaasthaana, yaare taare kaila daana, mahaaprabhu — daataa-shiromani]
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āpane kari’ āsvādane, śikhāila bhakta-gaṇe, prema-cintāmaṇira prabhu dhanī nāhi jāne sthānāsthāna, yāre tāre kaila dāna, mahāprabhu — dātā-śiromaṇi
By personally tasting the mellows of love of Godhead, Caitanya Mahāprabhu taught His direct disciples the process. Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu is a wealthy capitalist possessing the touchstone of love of God. Not considering whether one is a proper or improper recipient, He gives His treasure to anyone and everyone. Thus He is the most munificent.

Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu’s capital is the touchstone of love of Godhead, and consequently He is a great owner of that transcendental treasure. After making unlimited amounts of gold, the touchstone remains the same. Similarly, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu, although distributing love of Godhead unlimitedly, still remained the supreme owner of this transcendental opulence. His devotees, who learned it from Him, also had to distribute it munificently all over the world. This Kṛṣṇa consciousness movement, following in the footsteps of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu and His confidential devotees, is also trying to distribute love of Godhead all over the world through the chanting of the holy names of the Lord — Hare Kṛṣṇa, Hare Kṛṣṇa, Kṛṣṇa Kṛṣṇa, Hare Hare/ Hare Rāma, Hare Rāma, Rāma Rāma, Hare Hare.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.82

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ei gupta bhāva-sindhu, brahmā nā pāya eka bindu, hena dhana vilāila saṁsāre aiche dayālu avatāra, aiche dātā nāhi āra, guṇa keha nāre varṇibāre
[ei gupta bhaava-sindhu, brahmaa naa paaya eka bindu, hena dhana vilaaila samsaare aiche dayaalu avataara, aiche daataa naahi aara, guna keha naare varnibaare]
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ei gupta bhāva-sindhu, brahmā nā pāya eka bindu, hena dhana vilāila saṁsāre aiche dayālu avatāra, aiche dātā nāhi āra, guṇa keha nāre varṇibāre
No one, not even Lord Brahmā, can ascertain or even taste a drop of this confidential ocean of ecstasy, but Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu, out of His causeless mercy, has distributed this love of Godhead all over the world. Thus there cannot be any incarnation more munificent than Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu. There is no greater donor. Who can describe His transcendental qualities?
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.83

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kahibāra kathā nahe, kahile keha nā bujhaye, aiche citra caitanyera raṅga sei se bujhite pāre, caitanyera kṛpā yāṅre, haya tāṅra dāsānudāsa-saṅga
[kahibaara kathaa nahe, kahile keha naa bujhaye, aiche chitra chaitanyera ranga sei se bujhite paare, chaitanyera kripaa yaanre, haya taanra daasaanudaasa-sanga]
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kahibāra kathā nahe, kahile keha nā bujhaye, aiche citra caitanyera raṅga sei se bujhite pāre, caitanyera kṛpā yāṅre, haya tāṅra dāsānudāsa-saṅga
Such topics are not to be discussed freely because if they are, no one will understand them. Such are the wonderful pastimes of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu. Unto one who is able to understand, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu has shown mercy by giving him the association of the servant of His own servant.

An ordinary person cannot understand the transcendental ecstasies in the mode of Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī. Unfit persons who try to understand them are perverted into the sahajiyā, bāula and other sampradāyas. Thus the teachings are perverted. Even learned scholars in the academic field cannot understand the transcendental bliss and ecstasy exhibited by Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu and His pure devotees. One must be fit to understand the purport of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu’s activities.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.84

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caitanya-līlā-ratna-sāra, svarūpera bhāṇḍāra, teṅho thuilā raghunāthera kaṇṭhe tāhāṅ kichu ye śuniluṅ, tāhā ihāṅ vistāriluṅ, bhakta-gaṇe diluṅ ei bheṭe
[chaitanya-leelaa-ratna-saara, svaroopera bhaandaara, tenho thuilaa raghunaathera kanthe taahaan kichu ye shunilun, taahaa ihaan vistaarilun, bhakta-gane dilun ei bhete]
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caitanya-līlā-ratna-sāra, svarūpera bhāṇḍāra, teṅho thuilā raghunāthera kaṇṭhe tāhāṅ kichu ye śuniluṅ, tāhā ihāṅ vistāriluṅ, bhakta-gaṇe diluṅ ei bheṭe
The pastimes of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu are the topmost of jewels. They have been kept in the storehouse of Svarūpa Dāmodara Gosvāmī, who has explained them to Raghunātha dāsa Gosvāmī, who has repeated them to me. Whatever little I have heard from Raghunātha dāsa Gosvāmī I have described in this book, which is presented to all devotees.

All the activities of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu were noted by His personal secretary Svarūpa Dāmodara and repeated to Raghunātha dāsa Gosvāmī, who memorized them. Whatever Kṛṣṇadāsa Kavirāja Gosvāmī heard is recorded in Śrī Caitanya-caritāmṛta. This is called the paramparā system, from Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu to Svarūpa Dāmodara to Raghunātha dāsa Gosvāmī to Kavirāja Gosvāmī. Kṛṣṇadāsa Kavirāja Gosvāmī has distributed this information in his book Caitanya-caritāmṛta. In other words, Śrī Caitanya-caritāmṛta is the essence of the instruction given through the paramparā system of the disciplic succession stemming from Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.85

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yadi keha hena kaya, grantha kaila śloka-maya, itara jane nāribe bujhite prabhura yei ācaraṇa, sei kari varṇana, sarva-citta nāri ārādhite
[yadi keha hena kaya, grantha kaila shloka-maya, itara jane naaribe bujhite prabhura yei aacharana, sei kari varnana, sarva-chitta naari aaraadhite]
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yadi keha hena kaya, grantha kaila śloka-maya, itara jane nāribe bujhite prabhura yei ācaraṇa, sei kari varṇana, sarva-citta nāri ārādhite
If one says that Śrī Caitanya-caritāmṛta is full of Sanskrit verses and therefore not understandable by a common man, I reply that what I have described are the pastimes of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu and that for me to satisfy everyone is not possible.

Śrīla Kavirāja Gosvāmī and one who follows in his footsteps do not have to cater to the public. Their business is simply to satisfy the previous ācāryas and describe the pastimes of the Lord. One who is able to understand can relish this exalted transcendental literature, which is actually not meant for ordinary persons like scholars and literary men. Generally, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu’s pastimes recorded in the Caitanya-caritāmṛta are studied in universities and scholastic circles from a literary and historical point of view, but actually Śrī Caitanya-caritāmṛta is not a subject matter for research workers or literary scholars. It is simply meant for those devotees who have dedicated their lives to the service of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.86

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nāhi kāhāṅ savirodha, nāhi kāhāṅ anurodha, sahaja vastu kari vivaraṇa yadi haya rāgoddeśa, tāhāṅ haye āveśa, sahaja vastu nā yāya likhana
[naahi kaahaan savirodha, naahi kaahaan anurodha, sahaja vastu kari vivarana yadi haya raagoddesha, taahaan haye aavesha, sahaja vastu naa yaaya likhana]
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nāhi kāhāṅ savirodha, nāhi kāhāṅ anurodha, sahaja vastu kari vivaraṇa yadi haya rāgoddeśa, tāhāṅ haye āveśa, sahaja vastu nā yāya likhana
In this Caitanya-caritāmṛta there is no contradictory conclusion, nor is anyone else’s opinion accepted. I have written this book to describe the simple substance as I have heard it from superiors. If I become involved in someone’s likes and dislikes, I cannot possibly write the simple truth.

The simplest thing for human beings is to follow their predecessors. Judgment according to mundane senses is not a very easy process. Whatever is awakened by attachment to one’s predecessor is the way of devotional service as indicated by Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu. The author says, however, that he cannot consider the opinions of those who become attracted or repelled by such things, because one cannot write impartially in that way. In other words, the author is stating that he did not inject personal opinion in the Caitanya-caritāmṛta. He has simply described his spontaneous understanding from superiors. If he had been carried away by someone’s likes and dislikes, he could not have written of such a sublime subject matter in such an easy way. The actual facts are understandable to real devotees. When these facts are recorded, they are very congenial to the devotees, but one who is not a devotee cannot understand. Such is the subject matter for realization. Mundane scholarship and its concomitant attachments and detachments cannot arouse spontaneous love of Godhead. Such love cannot be described by a mundane scholar.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.87

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yebā nāhi bujhe keha, śunite śunite seha, ki adbhuta caitanya-carita kṛṣṇe upajibe prīti, jānibe rasera rīti, śunilei baḍa haya hita
[yebaa naahi bujhe keha, shunite shunite seha, ki adbhuta chaitanya-charita krishne upajibe preeti, jaanibe rasera reeti, shunilei bada haya hita]
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yebā nāhi bujhe keha, śunite śunite seha, ki adbhuta caitanya-carita kṛṣṇe upajibe prīti, jānibe rasera rīti, śunilei baḍa haya hita
If one does not understand in the beginning but continues to hear again and again the wonderful effects of Lord Caitanya’s pastimes will bring love for Kṛṣṇa. Gradually one will come to understand the loving affairs between Kṛṣṇa and the gopīs and other associates of Vṛndāvana. Everyone is advised to continue to hear over and over again in order to greatly benefit.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.88

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bhāgavata — śloka-maya, ṭīkā tāra saṁskṛta haya, tabu kaiche bujhe tri-bhuvana ihāṅ śloka dui cāri, tāra vyākhyā bhāṣā kari, kene nā bujhibe sarva-jana
[bhaagavata — shloka-maya, teekaa taara samskrita haya, tabu kaiche bujhe tri-bhuvana ihaan shloka dui chaari, taara vyaakhyaa bhaashaa kari, kene naa bujhibe sarva-jana]
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bhāgavata — śloka-maya, ṭīkā tāra saṁskṛta haya, tabu kaiche bujhe tri-bhuvana ihāṅ śloka dui cāri, tāra vyākhyā bhāṣā kari, kene nā bujhibe sarva-jana
In reply to those critics who say that Śrī Caitanya-caritāmṛta is full of Sanskrit verses, it can be said that Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam is also full of Sanskrit verses, as are the commentaries on Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam. Nonetheless, Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam can be understood by everyone, as well as by advanced devotees who study the Sanskrit commentaries. Why, then, will people not understand the Caitanya-caritāmṛta? There are only a few Sanskrit verses, and these have been explained in the Bengali vernacular. What is the difficulty in understanding?
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.89

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śeṣa-līlāra sūtra-gaṇa, kailuṅ kichu vivaraṇa, ihāṅ vistārite citta haya thāke yadi āyuḥ-śeṣa, vistāriba līlā-śeṣa, yadi mahāprabhura kṛpā haya
[shesha-leelaara sootra-gana, kailun kichu vivarana, ihaan vistaarite chitta haya thaake yadi aayuh-shesha, vistaariba leelaa-shesha, yadi mahaaprabhura kripaa haya]
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śeṣa-līlāra sūtra-gaṇa, kailuṅ kichu vivaraṇa, ihāṅ vistārite citta haya thāke yadi āyuḥ-śeṣa, vistāriba līlā-śeṣa, yadi mahāprabhura kṛpā haya
I have already given a synopsis of all the facts and figures of Lord Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu’s last pastimes, and I have a desire to describe them elaborately. If I remain longer and am fortunate enough to receive the mercy of Lord Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu, I shall try to describe them again more elaborately.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.90

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āmi vṛddha jarātura, likhite kāṅpaye kara, mane kichu smaraṇa nā haya nā dekhiye nayane, nā śuniye śravaṇe, tabu likhi’ — e baḍa vismaya
[aami vriddha jaraatura, likhite kaanpaye kara, mane kichu smarana naa haya naa dekhiye nayane, naa shuniye shravane, tabu likhi’ — e bada vismaya]
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āmi vṛddha jarātura, likhite kāṅpaye kara, mane kichu smaraṇa nā haya nā dekhiye nayane, nā śuniye śravaṇe, tabu likhi’ — e baḍa vismaya
I have now become too old and disturbed by invalidity. While I write, my hands tremble. I cannot remember anything, nor can I see or hear properly. Still I write, and this is a great wonder.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.91

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ei antya-līlā-sāra, sūtra-madhye vistāra, kari’ kichu kariluṅ varṇana ihā-madhye mari yabe, varṇite nā pāri tabe, ei līlā bhakta-gaṇa-dhana
[ei antya-leelaa-saara, sootra-madhye vistaara, kari’ kichu karilun varnana ihaa-madhye mari yabe, varnite naa paari tabe, ei leelaa bhakta-gana-dhana]
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ei antya-līlā-sāra, sūtra-madhye vistāra, kari’ kichu kariluṅ varṇana ihā-madhye mari yabe, varṇite nā pāri tabe, ei līlā bhakta-gaṇa-dhana
In this chapter I have to some extent described the essence of the pastimes of Lord Caitanya at the end. If I die in the meantime and cannot describe them in detail, at least the devotees will have this transcendental treasure.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.92

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saṅkṣepe ei sūtra kaila, yei ihāṅ nā likhila, āge tāhā kariba vistāra yadi tata dina jiye, mahāprabhura kṛpā haye, icchā bhari’ kariba vicāra
[sankshepe ei sootra kaila, yei ihaan naa likhila, aage taahaa kariba vistaara yadi tata dina jiye, mahaaprabhura kripaa haye, ichchaa bhari’ kariba vichaara]
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saṅkṣepe ei sūtra kaila, yei ihāṅ nā likhila, āge tāhā kariba vistāra yadi tata dina jiye, mahāprabhura kṛpā haye, icchā bhari’ kariba vicāra
In this chapter I have briefly described the antya-līlā. Whatever I have not described I shall describe extensively in the future. If by Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu’s mercy I live for so many days that I can fulfill my desires, I will give full consideration to these pastimes.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.93

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choṭa baḍa bhakta-gaṇa, vandoṅ sabāra śrī-caraṇa, sabe more karaha santoṣa svarūpa-gosāñira mata, rūpa-raghunātha jāne yata, tāi likhi’ nāhi mora doṣa
[chota bada bhakta-gana, vandon sabaara shree-charana, sabe more karaha santosha svaroopa-gosaanira mata, roopa-raghunaatha jaane yata, taai likhi’ naahi mora dosha]
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choṭa baḍa bhakta-gaṇa, vandoṅ sabāra śrī-caraṇa, sabe more karaha santoṣa svarūpa-gosāñira mata, rūpa-raghunātha jāne yata, tāi likhi’ nāhi mora doṣa
I worship herewith the lotus feet of all kinds of devotees, both advanced and neophyte. I request all of them to be satisfied with me. I am faultless because I have written herein whatever I have understood from Svarūpa Dāmodara Gosvāmī and Rūpa and Raghunātha dāsa Gosvāmīs. I have neither added to nor subtracted from their version.

According to Śrīla Bhaktisiddhānta Sarasvatī Ṭhākura, there are three kinds of devotees, known as bhajana-vijña (experts in devotional service), bhajana-śīla (devotees engaged in devotional service) and kṛṣṇa-nāme dīkṣita kṛṣṇa-nāma-kārī (initiated devotees engaged in chanting). The author of Śrī Caitanya-caritāmṛta begs the mercy of all these devotees and asks them to be pleased with him. He says, “Let the neophyte devotees — the devotees who are very expert in arguing though they have no sense of advanced devotional service, who think themselves very advanced because they imitate some smārta-brāhmaṇa — let such devotees not be displeased with me, thinking that I have committed errors in this regard. I beg their pardon with great humility, but I am submitting that I personally have no desire to add or subtract anything. I have only written what I have heard in the disciplic succession because I am dedicated to the lotus feet of previous ācāryas like Svarūpa Dāmodara, Raghunātha dāsa Gosvāmī and Rūpa Gosvāmī. I have only written what I have learned from them.”

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.94

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śrī-caitanya, nityānanda, advaitādi bhakta-vṛnda, śire dhari sabāra caraṇa svarūpa, rūpa, sanātana, raghunāthera śrī-caraṇa, dhūli karoṅ mastake bhūṣaṇa
[shree-chaitanya, nityaananda, advaitaadi bhakta-vrinda, shire dhari sabaara charana svaroopa, roopa, sanaatana, raghunaathera shree-charana, dhooli karon mastake bhooshana]
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śrī-caitanya, nityānanda, advaitādi bhakta-vṛnda, śire dhari sabāra caraṇa svarūpa, rūpa, sanātana, raghunāthera śrī-caraṇa, dhūli karoṅ mastake bhūṣaṇa
According to the paramparā system, I wish to take the dust from the lotus feet of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu, Nityānanda Prabhu, Advaita Prabhu, and all the associates of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu like Svarūpa Dāmodara, Rūpa Gosvāmī, Sanātana Gosvāmī and Raghunātha dāsa Gosvāmī. I wish to take the dust of their lotus feet upon my head. In this way I wish to be blessed with their mercy.
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Caitanya-caritāmṛta 2.95

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pāñā yāṅra ājñā-dhana, vrajera vaiṣṇava-gaṇa, vandoṅ tāṅra mukhya haridāsa caitanya-vilāsa-sindhu- kallolera eka bindu, tāra kaṇā kahe kṛṣṇa-dāsa
[paanaa yaanra aajnaa-dhana, vrajera vaishnava-gana, vandon taanra mukhya haridaasa chaitanya-vilaasa-sindhu- kallolera eka bindu, taara kanaa kahe krishna-daasa]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
pāñā yāṅra ājñā-dhana, vrajera vaiṣṇava-gaṇa, vandoṅ tāṅra mukhya haridāsa caitanya-vilāsa-sindhu- kallolera eka bindu, tāra kaṇā kahe kṛṣṇa-dāsa
Receiving orders from the above authorities and the Vaiṣṇavas of Vṛndāvana, especially from Haridāsa, the priest of Govindajī, I, Kṛṣṇadāsa Kavirāja Gosvāmī, have tried to describe one small particle of one drop of one wave of the ocean of the pastimes of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu.

Thus end the Bhaktivedanta purports to Śrī Caitanya-caritāmṛta, Madhya-līlā, second chapter, describing the ecstatic manifestations of Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu.

— A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda
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