Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu .5.77
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
One old devotee said, “My dear Lord, when we are away from You we become so anxious to see You again, and there is great misery in our lives. But then when we do see You, there immediately comes the fear of separation. Under the circumstances, both when we see You and when we do not see You, we are subjected to different kinds of tribulation.” This is an instance of a contradictory mixture of ecstatic love for Kṛṣṇa.
One would assume (prāyaḥ) that bhāvas such as harṣa (śītā) are filled with happiness and others such as viṣāda (uṣṇā) are filled with sorrow. Rati has by its very nature some sorrow even in meeting of the lovers, because there is a predominance of longing during separation which causes suffering and worry about separation during meeting which causes suffering as well. Thus it is said: adṛṣṭe darśanotkaṇthā dṛṣṭe viccheda-bhīrutā nāḍṣṭena na dṛṣṭena bhavatā labhyate sukham If I do not see You, then I am filled with longing to see You, and when I do see You, I am filled with fear of separation. Thus, both on not seeing You, and on seeing You, I do not attain happiness.
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