Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu .4.20
yathā vā –
[yathaa vaa –]
syamantakam ahaṁ hṛtvā gato ghorāsyam antakam |
[syamantakam aham hritvaa gato ghoraasyam antakam |]
karavai taraṇīṁ kāṁ vā kṣipto vaitaraṇīyam anu ||20||
[karavai taraneem kaam vaa kshipto vaitaraneeyam anu ||20||]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
yathā vā –
syamantakam ahaṁ hṛtvā gato ghorāsyam antakam |
karavai taraṇīṁ kāṁ vā kṣipto vaitaraṇīyam anu ||20||
Another example or remorse arising from committing offense: Having stolen the Syamantaka jewel, I have fallen into the mouth of terrible hell. Having fallen in the Vaitaraṇī River, what boat should I use to cross over it?
Gauḍīya Ācāryas
Jīva Gosvāmī
Gauḍīya
Durgama-saṅgamanī
Commentary
These are thoughts of Akrura. Instead of kāṁ vā, kiṁ vā is also found. This is more refined speech. It would then mean “Will I be able to cross the Vaitaraṇī River?” [Note: There is a play on words with syamantakam and antakam, and taraṇīm and vaitaraṇiyam.]
My note
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