I am simply trying to write about Lord Gauracandra’s transcendental activities and spiritual madness, which are very wonderful and uncommon. I dare to write of them only because I have heard from the mouths of those who have personally seen the Lord’s activities.
In the company of Svarūpa Dāmodara Gosvāmī and Rāmānanda Rāya, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu once passed half the night talking about the pastimes of Lord Kṛṣṇa.
To complement the ecstasy of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu, Rāmānanda Rāya would quote verses from the books of Vidyāpati and Caṇḍīdāsa, and especially from the Gīta-govinda, by Jayadeva Gosvāmī.
ei-mate nānā-bhāve ardha-rātri haila gosāñire śayana karāi’ duṅhe ghare gela
In this way Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu passed half the night experiencing varieties of emotions. Finally, after making the Lord lie down on His bed, Svarūpa Dāmodara and Rāmānanda Rāya returned to their homes.
gambhīrāra dvāre govinda karilā śayana saba-rātri prabhu karena ucca-saṅkīrtana
[gambheeraara dvaare govinda karilaa shayana saba-raatri prabhu karena uchcha-sankeertana]
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gambhīrāra dvāre govinda karilā śayana saba-rātri prabhu karena ucca-saṅkīrtana
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu’s personal servant, Govinda, lay down at the door of His room, and the Lord very loudly chanted the Hare Kṛṣṇa mahā-mantra all night.
After searching here and there, they finally came to the cow shed near the Siṁha-dvāra. There they saw Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu lying unconscious among the cows.
His arms and legs had entered the trunk of His body, exactly like those of a tortoise. His mouth was foaming, there were eruptions on His body, and tears flowed from His eyes.
As the Lord lay there unconscious, His body resembled a large pumpkin. Externally He was completely inert, but within He felt overwhelming transcendental bliss.
All the cows around the Lord were sniffing His transcendental body. When the devotees tried to check them, they refused to give up their association with the transcendental body of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu.
ucca kari’ śravaṇe kare nāma-saṅkīrtana aneka-kṣaṇe mahāprabhu pāilā cetana
[uchcha kari’ shravane kare naama-sankeertana aneka-kshane mahaaprabhu paailaa chetana]
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ucca kari’ śravaṇe kare nāma-saṅkīrtana aneka-kṣaṇe mahāprabhu pāilā cetana
All the devotees began to chant the Hare Kṛṣṇa mantra very loudly in the Lord’s ears, and after a considerable time Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu regained consciousness.
“After hearing the vibration of a flute, I went to Vṛndāvana, and there I saw that Kṛṣṇa, the son of Mahārāja Nanda, was playing on His flute in the pasturing grounds.
gopī-gaṇa-saha vihāra, hāsa, parihāsa kaṇṭha-dhvani-ukti śuni’ mora karṇollāsa
[gopee-gana-saha vihaara, haasa, parihaasa kantha-dhvani-ukti shuni’ mora karnollaasa]
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gopī-gaṇa-saha vihāra, hāsa, parihāsa kaṇṭha-dhvani-ukti śuni’ mora karṇollāsa
“I saw Kṛṣṇa and the gopīs enjoying all kinds of pastimes while laughing and joking together. Hearing their vocal expressions enhanced the joy of My ears.
“Because you brought Me back here, I could no longer hear the nectarean voices of Kṛṣṇa and the gopīs, nor could I hear the sounds of their ornaments or the flute.”
bhāvāveśe svarūpe kahena gadgada-vāṇī ‘karṇa tṛṣṇāya mare, paḍa rasāyana, śuni’
[bhaavaaveshe svaroope kahena gadgada-vaanee ‘karna trishnaaya mare, pada rasaayana, shuni’]
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bhāvāveśe svarūpe kahena gadgada-vāṇī ‘karṇa tṛṣṇāya mare, paḍa rasāyana, śuni’
In great ecstasy, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu said to Svarūpa Dāmodara in a faltering voice, “My ears are dying of thirst. Please recite something to quench this thirst. Let Me hear it.”
Understanding the ecstatic emotions of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu, Svarūpa Dāmodara, in a sweet voice, recited the following verse from Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam.
kā stry aṅga te kala-padāmṛta-veṇu-gīta- sammohitārya-caritān na calet tri-lokyām trailokya-saubhagam idaṁ ca nirīkṣya rūpaṁ yad go-dvija-druma-mṛgāḥ pulakāny abibhran
[kaa stry anga te kala-padaamrita-venu-geeta- sammohitaarya-charitaan na chalet tri-lokyaam trailokya-saubhagam idam cha nireekshya roopam yad go-dvija-druma-mrigaah pulakaany abibhran]
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kā stry aṅga te kala-padāmṛta-veṇu-gīta- sammohitārya-caritān na calet tri-lokyām trailokya-saubhagam idaṁ ca nirīkṣya rūpaṁ yad go-dvija-druma-mṛgāḥ pulakāny abibhran
“[The gopīs said:] ‘My dear Lord Kṛṣṇa, where is that woman within the three worlds who would not be captivated by the rhythms of the sweet songs coming from Your wonderful flute? Who would not fall down from the path of chastity in this way? Your beauty is the most sublime within the three worlds. Upon seeing Your beauty, even cows, birds, animals and trees in the forest are stunned in jubilation.”’
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu said, “The gopīs entered the arena of the rāsa dance in ecstasy, but after hearing Kṛṣṇa’s words of negligence and detachment, they understood that He was going to renounce them. Thus they began to chastise Him in anger.
“ ‘O dear lover,’ they said, ‘please answer just one question. Who among all the youthful women within this universe is not attracted by the sound of Your flute?
“ ‘When You play Your flute, the vibration acts like a messenger in the form of a yoginī perfect in the art of chanting mantras. This messenger enchants all the women in the universe and attracts them to You. Then she increases their great anxiety and induces them to give up the regulative principle of obeying superiors. Finally, she forcibly brings them to You to surrender in amorous love.
dharma chāḍāya veṇu-dvāre, hāne kaṭākṣa-kāma-śare, lajjā, bhaya, sakala chāḍāya ebe āmāya kari’ roṣa, kahi’ pati-tyāge ‘doṣa’, dhārmika hañā dharma śikhāya!
[dharma chaadaaya venu-dvaare, haane kataaksha-kaama-share, lajjaa, bhaya, sakala chaadaaya ebe aamaaya kari’ rosha, kahi’ pati-tyaage ‘dosha’, dhaarmika hanaa dharma shikhaaya!]
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dharma chāḍāya veṇu-dvāre, hāne kaṭākṣa-kāma-śare, lajjā, bhaya, sakala chāḍāya ebe āmāya kari’ roṣa, kahi’ pati-tyāge ‘doṣa’, dhārmika hañā dharma śikhāya!
“ ‘The vibration of Your flute, accompanied by Your glance, which pierces us forcibly with the arrows of lust, induces us to ignore the regulative principles of religious life. Thus we become excited by lusty desires and come to You, giving up all shame and fear. But now You are angry with us. You are finding fault with our violating religious principles and leaving our homes and husbands. And as You instruct us about religious principles, we become helpless.
anya-kathā, anya-mana, bāhire anya ācaraṇa, ei saba śaṭha-paripāṭī tumi jāna parihāsa, haya nārīra sarva-nāśa, chāḍa ei saba kuṭīnāṭī
[anya-kathaa, anya-mana, baahire anya aacharana, ei saba shatha-paripaatee tumi jaana parihaasa, haya naareera sarva-naasha, chaada ei saba kuteenaatee]
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anya-kathā, anya-mana, bāhire anya ācaraṇa, ei saba śaṭha-paripāṭī tumi jāna parihāsa, haya nārīra sarva-nāśa, chāḍa ei saba kuṭīnāṭī
“ ‘We know that this is all a well-planned trick. You know how to make jokes that cause the complete annihilation of women, but we can understand that Your real mind, words and behavior are different. Therefore please give up all these clever tricks.
veṇu-nāda amṛta-ghole, amṛta-samāna miṭhā bole, amṛta-samāna bhūṣaṇa-śiñjita tina amṛte hare kāṇa, hare mana, hare prāṇa, kemane nārī dharibeka cita?”
[venu-naada amrita-ghole, amrita-samaana mithaa bole, amrita-samaana bhooshana-shinjita tina amrite hare kaana, hare mana, hare praana, kemane naaree dharibeka chita?”]
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veṇu-nāda amṛta-ghole, amṛta-samāna miṭhā bole, amṛta-samāna bhūṣaṇa-śiñjita tina amṛte hare kāṇa, hare mana, hare prāṇa, kemane nārī dharibeka cita?”
“ ‘The nectarean buttermilk of Your flute’s vibration, the nectar of Your sweet words and the nectarean sound of Your ornaments mix together to attract our ears, minds and lives. In this way You are killing us.’ ”
eta kahi’ krodhāveśe, bhāvera taraṅge bhāse, utkaṇṭhā-sāgare ḍube mana rādhāra utkaṇṭhā-vāṇī, paḍi’ āpane vākhāni, kṛṣṇa-mādhurya kare āsvādana
[eta kahi’ krodhaaveshe, bhaavera tarange bhaase, utkanthaa-saagare dube mana raadhaara utkanthaa-vaanee, padi’ aapane vaakhaani, krishna-maadhurya kare aasvaadana]
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eta kahi’ krodhāveśe, bhāvera taraṅge bhāse, utkaṇṭhā-sāgare ḍube mana rādhāra utkaṇṭhā-vāṇī, paḍi’ āpane vākhāni, kṛṣṇa-mādhurya kare āsvādana
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu spoke these words in a mood of anger as He floated on waves of ecstatic love. Merged in an ocean of anxiety, He recited a verse spoken by Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī expressing the same emotion. Then He personally explained the verse and thus tasted the sweetness of Kṛṣṇa.
nadaj-jalada-nisvanaḥ śravaṇa-karṣi-sac-chiñjitaḥ sanarma-rasa-sūcakākṣara-padārtha-bhaṅgy-uktikaḥ ramādika-varāṅganā-hṛdaya-hāri-vaṁśī-kalaḥ sa me madana-mohanaḥ sakhi tanoti karṇa-spṛhām
[nadaj-jalada-nisvanah shravana-karshi-sach-chinjitah sanarma-rasa-soochakaakshara-padaartha-bhangy-uktikah ramaadika-varaanganaa-hridaya-haari-vamshee-kalah sa me madana-mohanah sakhi tanoti karna-sprihaam]
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nadaj-jalada-nisvanaḥ śravaṇa-karṣi-sac-chiñjitaḥ sanarma-rasa-sūcakākṣara-padārtha-bhaṅgy-uktikaḥ ramādika-varāṅganā-hṛdaya-hāri-vaṁśī-kalaḥ sa me madana-mohanaḥ sakhi tanoti karṇa-spṛhām
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu continued, “ ‘My dear friend, the Supreme Personality of Godhead, Kṛṣṇa, has a voice as deep as a cloud resounding in the sky. With the tinkling of His ornaments He attracts the ears of the gopīs, and with the sound of His flute He attracts even the goddess of fortune and other beautiful women. That Personality of Godhead, known as Madana-mohana, whose joking words carry many indications and deep meanings, is increasing the lusty desires of My ears.’
Purport
This verse is found in the Govinda-līlāmṛta (8.5).
“Kṛṣṇa’s deep voice is more resonant than newly arrived clouds, and His sweet song defeats even the sweet voice of the cuckoo. Indeed, His song is so sweet that even one particle of its sound can inundate the entire world. If such a particle enters one’s ear, one is immediately bereft of all other types of hearing.
kaha, sakhi, ki kari upāya? kṛṣṇera se śabda-guṇe, harile āmāra kāṇe, ebe nā pāya, tṛṣṇāya mari’ yāya
[kaha, sakhi, ki kari upaaya? krishnera se shabda-gune, harile aamaara kaane, ebe naa paaya, trishnaaya mari’ yaaya]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
kaha, sakhi, ki kari upāya? kṛṣṇera se śabda-guṇe, harile āmāra kāṇe, ebe nā pāya, tṛṣṇāya mari’ yāya
“My dear friend, please tell Me what to do. My ears have been plundered by the qualities of Kṛṣṇa’s sound. Now, however, I cannot hear His transcendental sound, and I am almost dead for want of it.
“The tinkling of Kṛṣṇa’s ankle bells surpasses the songs of even the swan and crane, and the sound of His bangles puts the singing of the caṭaka bird to shame. Having allowed these sounds to enter the ears even once, one cannot tolerate hearing anything else.
se śrī-mukha-bhāṣita, amṛta haite parāmṛta, smita-karpūra tāhāte miśrita śabda, artha, — dui-śakti, nānā-rasa kare vyakti, pratyakṣara — narma-vibhūṣita
“Kṛṣṇa’s speech is far sweeter than nectar. Each of His jubilant words is full of meaning, and when His speech mixes with His smile, which is like camphor, the resultant sound and the deep meaning of Kṛṣṇa’s words create various transcendental mellows.
se amṛtera eka-kaṇa, karṇa-cakora-jīvana, karṇa-cakora jīye sei āśe bhāgya-vaśe kabhu pāya, abhāgye kabhu nā pāya, nā pāile maraye piyāse
“One particle of that transcendental, blissful nectar is the life and soul of the ear, which is like a cakora bird that lives in hope of tasting that nectar. Sometimes, by good fortune, the bird can taste it, but at other times he unfortunately cannot and therefore almost dies of thirst.
“The transcendental vibration of Kṛṣṇa’s flute disturbs the hearts of women all over the world, even if they hear it only once. Thus their fastened belts become loose, and these women become the unpaid maidservants of Kṛṣṇa. Indeed, they run toward Kṛṣṇa exactly like madwomen.
yebā lakṣmī-ṭhākurāṇī, teṅho ye kākalī śuni’, kṛṣṇa-pāśa āise pratyāśāya nā pāya kṛṣṇera saṅga, bāḍe tṛṣṇā-taraṅga, tapa kare, tabu nāhi pāya
[yebaa lakshmee-thaakuraanee, tenho ye kaakalee shuni’, krishna-paasha aaise pratyaashaaya naa paaya krishnera sanga, baade trishnaa-taranga, tapa kare, tabu naahi paaya]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
yebā lakṣmī-ṭhākurāṇī, teṅho ye kākalī śuni’, kṛṣṇa-pāśa āise pratyāśāya nā pāya kṛṣṇera saṅga, bāḍe tṛṣṇā-taraṅga, tapa kare, tabu nāhi pāya
“When she hears the vibration of Kṛṣṇa’s flute, even the goddess of fortune comes to Him, greatly hoping for His association, but nevertheless she does not get it. When the waves of thirst for His association increase, she performs austerities, but still she cannot meet Him.
ei śabdāmṛta cāri, yāra haya bhāgya bhāri, sei karṇe ihā kare pāna ihā yei nāhi śune, se kāṇa janmila kene, kāṇākaḍi-sama sei kāṇa”
[ei shabdaamrita chaari, yaara haya bhaagya bhaari, sei karne ihaa kare paana ihaa yei naahi shune, se kaana janmila kene, kaanaakadi-sama sei kaana”]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
ei śabdāmṛta cāri, yāra haya bhāgya bhāri, sei karṇe ihā kare pāna ihā yei nāhi śune, se kāṇa janmila kene, kāṇākaḍi-sama sei kāṇa”
“Only the most fortunate can hear these four nectarean sounds — Kṛṣṇa’s words, the tinkling of His ankle bells and bangles, His voice and the vibration of His flute. If one does not hear these sounds, his ears are as useless as small conchshells with holes.”
While Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu lamented in this way, agitation and ecstasy awoke in His mind, and He became very restless. Many transcendental ecstasies combined in Him, including anxiety, lamentation, attention, eagerness, fear, determination and remembrance.
bhāva-śābalye rādhāra ukti, līlā-śuke haila sphūrti, sei bhāve paḍe eka śloka unmādera sāmarthye, sei ślokera kare arthe, yei artha nāhi jāne loka
[bhaava-shaabalye raadhaara ukti, leelaa-shuke haila sphoorti, sei bhaave pade eka shloka unmaadera saamarthye, sei shlokera kare arthe, yei artha naahi jaane loka]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
bhāva-śābalye rādhāra ukti, līlā-śuke haila sphūrti, sei bhāve paḍe eka śloka unmādera sāmarthye, sei ślokera kare arthe, yei artha nāhi jāne loka
The aggregate of all these ecstasies once awoke a statement by Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī in the mind of Bilvamaṅgala Ṭhākura [Līlā-śuka]. In the same ecstatic mood, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu now recited that verse, and on the strength of madness He described its meaning, which is unknown to people in general.
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu said, “ ‘Alas, what shall I do? To whom shall I speak? Let whatever I have done in hopes of meeting Kṛṣṇa be finished now. Please say something auspicious, but do not speak about Kṛṣṇa. Alas, Kṛṣṇa is lying within My heart like Cupid; therefore how can I possibly give up talking of Him? I cannot forget Kṛṣṇa, whose smile is sweeter than sweetness itself and who gives pleasure to My mind and eyes. Alas, My great thirst for Kṛṣṇa is increasing moment by moment!’
Purport
This statement by Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī is quoted from the Kṛṣṇa-karṇāmṛta (42).
“ei kṛṣṇera virahe, udvege mana sthira nahe, prāpty-upāya-cintana nā yāya yebā tumi sakhī-gaṇa, viṣāde bāula mana, kāre puchoṅ, ke kahe upāya?
[“ei krishnera virahe, udvege mana sthira nahe, praapty-upaaya-chintana naa yaaya yebaa tumi sakhee-gana, vishaade baaula mana, kaare puchon, ke kahe upaaya?]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
“ei kṛṣṇera virahe, udvege mana sthira nahe, prāpty-upāya-cintana nā yāya yebā tumi sakhī-gaṇa, viṣāde bāula mana, kāre puchoṅ, ke kahe upāya?
“The anxiety caused by separation from Kṛṣṇa has made Me impatient, and I can think of no way to meet Him. O My friends, you are also deranged by lamentation. Who, therefore, will tell Me how to find Him?
hā hā sakhi, ki kari upāya! kāṅhā karoṅ, kāhāṅ yāṅa, kāhāṅ gele kṛṣṇa pāṅa, kṛṣṇa vinā prāṇa mora yāya”
[haa haa sakhi, ki kari upaaya! kaanhaa karon, kaahaan yaana, kaahaan gele krishna paana, krishna vinaa praana mora yaaya”]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
hā hā sakhi, ki kari upāya! kāṅhā karoṅ, kāhāṅ yāṅa, kāhāṅ gele kṛṣṇa pāṅa, kṛṣṇa vinā prāṇa mora yāya”
“O My dear friends, how shall I find Kṛṣṇa? What shall I do? Where shall I go? Where can I meet Him? Because I cannot find Kṛṣṇa, My life is leaving Me.”
kṣaṇe mana sthira haya, tabe mane vicāraya, balite ha-ila bhāvodgama piṅgalāra vacana-smṛti, karāila bhāva-mati, tāte kare artha-nirdhāraṇa
[kshane mana sthira haya, tabe mane vichaaraya, balite ha-ila bhaavodgama pingalaara vachana-smriti, karaaila bhaava-mati, taate kare artha-nirdhaarana]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
kṣaṇe mana sthira haya, tabe mane vicāraya, balite ha-ila bhāvodgama piṅgalāra vacana-smṛti, karāila bhāva-mati, tāte kare artha-nirdhāraṇa
Suddenly, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu became calm and considered His state of mind. He remembered the words of Piṅgalā, and this aroused an ecstasy that moved Him to speak. Thus He explained the meaning of the verse.
Purport
Piṅgalā was a prostitute who said, “To hope against hope produces only misery. Utter hopelessness is the greatest happiness.” Remembering this statement, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu became ecstatic. The story of Piṅgalā is found in Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam, Eleventh Canto, eighth chapter, verses 22-44, as well as in the Mahābhārata, Śānti-parva, chapter 174.
“dekhi ei upāye, kṛṣṇa-āśā chāḍi’ diye, āśā chāḍile sukhī haya mana chāḍa’ kṛṣṇa-kathā adhanya, kaha anya-kathā dhanya, yāte haya kṛṣṇa-vismaraṇa”
[“dekhi ei upaaye, krishna-aashaa chaadi’ diye, aashaa chaadile sukhee haya mana chaada’ krishna-kathaa adhanya, kaha anya-kathaa dhanya, yaate haya krishna-vismarana”]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
“dekhi ei upāye, kṛṣṇa-āśā chāḍi’ diye, āśā chāḍile sukhī haya mana chāḍa’ kṛṣṇa-kathā adhanya, kaha anya-kathā dhanya, yāte haya kṛṣṇa-vismaraṇa”
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu said, “If I give up hope of meeting Kṛṣṇa, I shall then be happy. Therefore, let us stop this most inglorious discussion of Kṛṣṇa. It would be better for us to talk of glorious topics and forget Him.”
kahitei ha-ila smṛti, citte haila kṛṣṇa-sphūrti, sakhīre kahe hañā vismite “yāre cāhi chāḍite, sei śuñā āche citte, kona rīte nā pāri chāḍite”
[kahitei ha-ila smriti, chitte haila krishna-sphoorti, sakheere kahe hanaa vismite “yaare chaahi chaadite, sei shunaa aache chitte, kona reete naa paari chaadite”]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
kahitei ha-ila smṛti, citte haila kṛṣṇa-sphūrti, sakhīre kahe hañā vismite “yāre cāhi chāḍite, sei śuñā āche citte, kona rīte nā pāri chāḍite”
While speaking in this way, Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī suddenly remembered Kṛṣṇa. Indeed, He appeared within Her heart. Greatly astonished, She told Her friends, “The person I want to forget is lying in My heart.”
rādhā-bhāvera svabhāva āna, kṛṣṇe karāya ‘kāma’-jñāna, kāma-jñāne trāsa haila citte kahe — “ye jagat māre, se paśila antare, ei vairī nā deya pāsarite”
[raadhaa-bhaavera svabhaava aana, krishne karaaya ‘kaama’-jnaana, kaama-jnaane traasa haila chitte kahe — “ye jagat maare, se pashila antare, ei vairee naa deya paasarite”]
Blended reading (Sanskrit + English inline)
rādhā-bhāvera svabhāva āna, kṛṣṇe karāya ‘kāma’-jñāna, kāma-jñāne trāsa haila citte kahe — “ye jagat māre, se paśila antare, ei vairī nā deya pāsarite”
Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī’s ecstasy also made Her think of Kṛṣṇa as Cupid, and this understanding frightened Her. She said, “This Cupid, who has conquered the whole world and entered My heart, is My greatest enemy, for He does not allow Me to forget Him.”
autsukyera prāvīṇye, jiti’ anya bhāva-sainye, udaya haila nija-rājya-mane mane ha-ila lālasa, nā haya āpana-vaśa, duḥkhe mane karena bhartsane
[autsukyera praaveenye, jiti’ anya bhaava-sainye, udaya haila nija-raajya-mane mane ha-ila laalasa, naa haya aapana-vasha, duhkhe mane karena bhartsane]
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autsukyera prāvīṇye, jiti’ anya bhāva-sainye, udaya haila nija-rājya-mane mane ha-ila lālasa, nā haya āpana-vaśa, duḥkhe mane karena bhartsane
Then great eagerness conquered all the other soldiers of ecstasy, and an uncontrollable desire arose in the kingdom of Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī’s mind. Greatly unhappy, She then chastised Her own mind.
“If I do not think of Kṛṣṇa, My impoverished mind will die within a moment like a fish out of water. But when I see Kṛṣṇa’s sweetly smiling face, My mind and eyes are so pleased that My desire for Him redoubles.
“Alas! Where is Kṛṣṇa, the treasure of My life? Where is the lotus-eyed one? Alas! Where is the divine ocean of all transcendental qualities? Alas! Where is the beautiful blackish youth dressed in yellow garments? Alas! Where is the hero of the rāsa dance?
“Where shall I go? Where can I find You? Please tell Me. I shall go there.” Speaking in this way, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu began running. But Svarūpa Dāmodara Gosvāmī stood up, caught Him and took Him on his lap. Then Svarūpa Dāmodara brought Him back to His place and made Him sit down.
Suddenly Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu returned to external consciousness and said to Svarūpa Dāmodara Gosvāmī, “My dear Svarūpa, please sing some sweet songs.” The Lord’s ears were satisfied when He heard Svarūpa Dāmodara sing songs from the Gīta-govinda and those by the poet Vidyāpati.
Even Anantadeva, who possesses thousands of mouths, cannot fully describe the ecstatic transformations that Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu experienced in a single day.
jīva dīna ki karibe tāhāra varṇana? śākhā-candra-nyāya kari’ dig-daraśana
[jeeva deena ki karibe taahaara varnana? shaakhaa-chandra-nyaaya kari’ dig-darashana]
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jīva dīna ki karibe tāhāra varṇana? śākhā-candra-nyāya kari’ dig-daraśana
What can a poor creature like me describe of those transformations? I can give only a hint of them, as if showing the moon through the branches of a tree.
ihā yei śune, tāra juḍāya mana-kāṇa alaukika gūḍha-prema-ceṣṭā haya jñāna
[ihaa yei shune, taara judaaya mana-kaana alaukika goodha-prema-cheshtaa haya jnaana]
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ihā yei śune, tāra juḍāya mana-kāṇa alaukika gūḍha-prema-ceṣṭā haya jñāna
This description, however, will satisfy the mind and ears of anyone who hears it, and he will be able to understand these uncommon activities of deep ecstatic love for Kṛṣṇa.
Ecstatic love for Kṛṣṇa is wonderfully deep. By personally tasting the glorious sweetness of that love, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu showed us its extreme limit.
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu is wonderfully merciful and wonderfully magnanimous. We have heard of no one else within this world so merciful and charitable.
O people of the world, worship the lotus feet of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu in all respects. Only in this way will you achieve the nectarean treasure of ecstatic love for Kṛṣṇa.
ei ta’ kahiluṅ ‘kūrmākṛti’-anubhāva unmāda-ceṣṭita tāte unmāda-pralāpa
[ei ta’ kahilun ‘koormaakriti’-anubhaava unmaada-cheshtita taate unmaada-pralaapa]
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ei ta’ kahiluṅ ‘kūrmākṛti’-anubhāva unmāda-ceṣṭita tāte unmāda-pralāpa
Thus I have described Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu’s ecstatic transformation of becoming like a tortoise. In that ecstasy, He talked and acted like a madman.
anudghāṭya dvāra-trayam uru ca bhitti-trayam aho vilaṅghyoccaiḥ kāliṅgika-surabhi-madhye nipatitaḥ tanūdyat-saṅkocāt kamaṭha iva kṛṣṇoru-virahād virājan gaurāṅgo hṛdaya udayan māṁ madayati
[anudghaatya dvaara-trayam uru cha bhitti-trayam aho vilanghyochchaih kaalingika-surabhi-madhye nipatitah tanoodyat-sankochaat kamatha iva krishnoru-virahaad viraajan gauraango hridaya udayan maam madayati]
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anudghāṭya dvāra-trayam uru ca bhitti-trayam aho vilaṅghyoccaiḥ kāliṅgika-surabhi-madhye nipatitaḥ tanūdyat-saṅkocāt kamaṭha iva kṛṣṇoru-virahād virājan gaurāṅgo hṛdaya udayan māṁ madayati
“How wonderful it is! Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu left His residence without opening the three strongly bolted doors. Then He crossed over three high walls, and later, because of strong feelings of separation from Kṛṣṇa, He fell down amidst the cows of the Tailaṅga district and retracted all the limbs of His body like a tortoise. Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu, who appeared in that way, rises in my heart and maddens me.”
śrī-rūpa-raghunātha-pade yāra āśa caitanya-caritāmṛta kahe kṛṣṇadāsa
[shree-roopa-raghunaatha-pade yaara aasha chaitanya-charitaamrita kahe krishnadaasa]
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śrī-rūpa-raghunātha-pade yāra āśa caitanya-caritāmṛta kahe kṛṣṇadāsa
Praying at the lotus feet of Śrī Rūpa and Śrī Raghunātha, always desiring their mercy, I, Kṛṣṇadāsa, narrate Śrī Caitanya-caritāmṛta, following in their footsteps.
Purport
Thus end the Bhaktivedanta purports to Śrī Caitanya-caritāmṛta, Antya-līlā, seventeenth chapter, describing Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu’s pastime of retracting His limbs like a tortoise.